Daughter Said: It's A Shame To Have A Father Like Me

Now the playback screen is,

He looked so lonely, with a helpless light in his eyes,

slumped and lost,

That's what Yu Ye looked like on the hospital bed, he looked at the life in front of him complicatedly,

The second serious illness was sent to a mental hospital,

He is thinking about life, thinking about many meanings, all kinds of meanings of existence,

This is really desperate,

After being beaten and stabilized, while the mental tumor was suppressed, he also lost his short-term control over his body, and he could only become rotten and weakened, just like an elderly patient looking at himself in front of him.

nothing can move,

I am only weak,

The whole person is more than decadent,

Like a paralyzed but conscious patient looking in front of him, looking at the era in front of him,

"Doctor, when will I have to regain control of my body?

"Eight hours, sleep well now."

He woke up intermittently that night, opened his eyes several times,

still whispering,

"Will anyone know my epitaph? 35

"My grave has been chosen,

"Xiao Shuying will choose how she will live in the future.""

"I really want to talk about a warm love, or talk about the piano once."

"I don't want to be a human in my next life, I'm too tired.."

He didn't know how much he had said in his dreams,

I only know that staying here is uncomfortable, not as good as home,

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And another screen,

Xiao Shuying is at home, it's past ten o'clock, she hasn't rested yet,

At this point in the past, someone always urged her to take a good rest,

Or the man just came back from get off work,

He would always smile honestly, carry the crab he just bought, or the fried meat he just bought, and then he smiled and said, let's have some supper. ,

but not now,

Some are just the orange light in the living room, and there is a constant gray,

The only relative at home is not there, this feeling is really missing, missing a lot.

"fine.

"I am the strongest, I am the best."

"I want to grow up well by myself, and I want to face everything alone and fearlessly. 99

"I'm the best!

"the best!"

Xiao Shuying kept saying to herself,

She just wants to leave the dilapidated place, leave the gray and pale place, and she must pursue a better life, a more perfect life,

"Loneliness is only temporary.

"I will definitely get out of here."

"At that time, I will have many big villas, many friends, and many people will cheer for me."

Now, she feels good about the future.

And now playback,

Many people sighed in the barrage,

"Xiao Shuying just wants to leave, and when this man is not (bbae) around for a while, she just wants to leave the house.

"And that man just wanted to go home and only worry about everything about the child.

"Actually, life sometimes contrasts like this."

While the playback screen continues,

This time it was a mental hospital, Yu Ye finally felt the effect of the medicine passed, he struggled to get up,

It was only five in the morning, and he looked weakly at the doctor in front of him.

"I have to go home."

"If you look like this, you may die when you go out. If no one finds out, you will really die of part of the brain stem, cerebral hemorrhage, and even schizophrenia. The doctor shook his head and calmly advised.

Yu Ye smiled wryly, looked in front of him with complicated eyes, and said calmly: "I should have died before, and I have died several times before.

"It's useless. You understand my condition. Once I'm really dying, it's useless."

"I was dropped by the hospital twice, got used to it. 35

With a weak voice, he stood up, but with a smile on his face, and bowed unsteadily to the doctor.

that moment,

His grief is there,

An instant hit, an instant grief.

The doctor is a thin high school senior. At this moment, he looked at it and was silent for a long time,

"for the kids?"

"how do you know?""

"Your eyes are very gentle, many cancers, and some mental patients, when you mention the child's name, your eyes become gentle.

"thanks.

Yu Ye thanked, the doctor helped him put on a coat, but Yu Ye refused, he put it on tremblingly, and then took a long breath to restore himself to a good state, and then he had a gentle smile in his eyes.

At that moment he was really firm,

He didn't want others to see him so weak, so weak, so sad, so miserable,

not good,

shameful,

I'm not as sick as I am, I can dress, walk, and send children just like everyone else.

This is his subconscious dignity.

He was afraid that once he needed help from other people even putting on his coat, he would really be finished, really sad and ridiculous,

He wants to show a clean light, and he only wants to live a clean, bright and dignified life in this life.

He went home, took a taxi, sat weakly in the front row, the morning light came through the window and fell on his shoulders, at that moment he really didn't seem to belong to the world,

When he got home, he went to buy breakfast, tea eggs, polenta, pancakes,

Then he knocked on the door.

The voice was as gentle as before when I got home.

"Xiao Shuying, come to eat.

He sat in the living room, bathed in the light from the balcony, and put away his chopsticks.

Xiao Shuying just finished washing up and looked at him in shock,

She didn't expect that the man really came back,

However, I was still in the hospital before, it was so serious, the weak posture of lying on the hospital bed, the posture of real collapse,

But now, he just held the breakfast calmly, pointed to each breakfast, smiled, and ate.

Still that scene, still so warm.

word of mouth...

This made Xiao Shuying inexplicably think of this sentence, this man really did it in practice,

He really did.

Have a meal,

This time for breakfast,

Yu Ye was a little hesitant to speak, he wanted to speak in silence, but he remained silent,

"What do you want to say?" Xiao Shuying frowned, this is not like that man, he was not like this before.

"Do you think this place is good?" Yu Ye looked at Baijia District.

"Not good." Xiao Shuying said decisively.

"I'll rent you a house in the future, and then you will live outside." He said quietly.

"Do you want me to go out to live in a while? Don't you want me to stay at home?" At this moment, Xiao Shuying was silent, with a lot of complicated light in his eyes.

"When the child is older, he can go out and explore, but I can't keep talking to you, I also want to enjoy a happy life in my old age!" Yu Ye seemed to be annoyed and said impatiently.

Xiao Shuying was silent, at that moment she really felt cold.

"Well, I'm better off outside."

"I don't like it here either! Xiao Shuying is angry.

"You have to remember to give me pension money in the future." Yu Ye was still talking, he was very greedy, extremely greedy.

Xiao Shuying was silent and nodded.

And now there are more barrages at this moment,

Now everyone saw this scene and thought of this scene.

The screen is reproduced,

The man's posture, the man's appearance,

He began to drive the child out,

He became greedy for pension money,

everything is greedy,

The barrage is all,

"Hey, this man has finally started, maybe because of illness, maybe because of other reasons, he has completely fallen, completely fallen.

"It's so sad, there's no light on him."

"It started. From this moment on, Xiao Shuying started to make up for him."

What kind of image is Yu Ye now,

Subconsciously let the child out, subconsciously start to drive the child away,

At the same time, he began to mention pensions many times, and he was extremely greedy.

Maybe because of the disease, maybe because of this, he really started to change slowly.

Finally got to this point.