Flying Gulls Never Land

After my father died, my family lost a source of income. My mother was always busy to support the family. In the morning, she would cook two dishes, one meat and one vegetable, put them in the refrigerator, and set the time for the rice cooker. In this way, when we come home from school, we just need to heat the dishes in the microwave oven.

During the winter vacation when I was 11 years old, it was very cold and it snowed heavily in the south. It was the first time in my life that I saw real snow, soft, cold, blocking the sun, and dyeing the whole world white.

And in that snow the biggest time, I hold the toilet, spit out, even bile.

After vomiting, there will be a short period of comfort, about five or six minutes, and then there will be more than stomachache, producing a strong desire for vomiting.

Sheng Minou heard the news and came to the bathroom door, far away from me, looked for a moment, and asked in a tone of little concern: "how are you doing? Do you want to go to the hospital?"

I press the pump to build, tears and snivel back to him to wave.

"No It's OK. Don't go. "

My father's tragic death has caused a considerable psychological shadow for me. For a long time, I was always inexplicably excluded from the hospital. If I could not go, I would not go. I must go. It is also fast in and fast out. So even if it was hard to die at that time, I firmly said that I didn't need to go to the hospital.

And Sheng min Ou at that time just felt "should" to ask, so he asked. Since I didn't need help, it was my business. He didn't ask any more and turned back to his bedroom.

I sit in the bathroom for a while, shake up and go back to the room, shrink in bed, endure a bout of stomach discomfort.

Until nine o'clock in the evening, the dull pain turned into severe colic. The discomfort did not improve, but became more and more serious.

Cold sweat constantly on their own every pore to the outside, pain I gradually lose strength, see things have double shadow.

This made me realize that if I don't go to the hospital, my mother will probably collect the corpse for me when I go home.

Relying on the idea to support the last bit of strength, I step by step out of the bedroom, to knock on the door of Sheng min ou.

Our room is actually adjacent to each other. The original big bedroom is divided into two rooms. And because of the change, Sheng min Ou's room has no windows at all. It's cramped and stuffy. It always looks very dark.

Then he moved away, and my mother used his house as a warehouse, and it was a mess.

"Brother..." I shuffled to his bedroom door and knocked on it.

After a while, inside spread out the ground movement, soon Sheng min gull opened the door and appeared in front of me.

At that time, he was 15 years old, and he was already smoking. He was much higher than me, so that he stood close. I still needed to look up at him.

"Brother, I feel bad." I couldn't support it. I covered my stomach and fell into his arms.

He held me up, staggered back two steps and told me to stand up first.

"I don't have the strength..." At the age of 11, he is still a child. He can hold on when he is not dependent. When he is relieved, he is also vulnerable. "Brother, I feel like I am going to die It's cold and hot... "

Sheng min gull took out his hand and touched my forehead and said, "you seem to have a fever."

No wonder I didn't have any strength at all. I leaned towards the youth more and more, and the words I said were crying: "brother, will I die?"

Sheng min Ou probably felt that I was confused and threw me on the sofa, then picked up the living room phone and dialed a number.

After several sounds, Sheng min gull's voice was obviously worried, but his expression was completely separated. It was as calm as a lake frozen by snow, without a trace of waves.

"Mom, ah Feng seems to be ill. I'm going to take him to see a doctor now. You can come to the hospital directly after work."

My mother anxiously asked him whether it was serious or not. He answered one by one and asked her not to worry, saying that she would handle it well.

Hang up the phone, Sheng min Ou advanced to his own house to change clothes, and went to my room to get a thick coat for me to put on.

He took the key and went to the door without any intention of helping me.

I took two steps, covered my stomach and squatted to the ground. I couldn't walk any more. Seeing that I didn't keep up, he turned around and came back to me.

"Can't you walk?"

I raised my head with tears in my eyes and sniffed at him: "well."

He frowned, and the word "trouble" almost appeared on his face. I bit my lips, and tears teetered in my eyes.

Suddenly, Sheng min gull squatted down in front of me.

I a Leng, listen to him say: "come up, I carry you."

It's no exaggeration to say that at that moment, a line of words came out of my mind, which said that only brother is good in the world, and children with elder brother are like treasure.

I blinked, winked away the tears that were about to spill out of my eyes, and climbed onto his back with all my hands and feet.

Sheng min gull took some time to stand up, and then carried me out of the door.

On rainy and snowy days, the road is wet and slippery, and it's hard to call a car. The road near our home is more partial. Sheng min Ou stands on the side of the road for a while. Seeing that there is no car coming, he has to try his luck at the intersection ahead."Brother I have a stomachache... " I huddled on his back and covered his head and face with a hairy down hat, forming a very safe and warm small space.

Sheng min gull may be a little itchy by the hair on my hat, and it's slanting.

"It doesn't hurt when you get to the hospital."

He always ignores my garrulous and over and over coquettish sentences, but sometimes he gets bored and chooses to come back to me.

It snowed heavily on the top of his hair and even on his thick black eyelashes. In the blink of an eye, he melted into water again and slid down the corner of his eye, mixing with the sweat on the temples.

I wiped it with the back of my hand for him, and I couldn't help but ask Brother, will I die? "

In fact, I'm not so afraid of death at ordinary times, but maybe I was very weak because of illness when I was young at that time. I always thought about it more, and it seemed very puzzling.

Sheng min Ou didn't answer my question. He walked slowly on the snow step by step, observing whether there was an empty car passing by from time to time.

"Brother, I feel bad I feel like I'm dying... "

Sheng min gull held me up, his breath was unsteady and said, "No Every word he said, a white mist came out of his mouth.

In the distance, there is a car with a bright green card coming slowly. Shengmin gull is busy waving, and my attention is also attracted to the past.

When the taxi pulled over, Sheng min Ou opened the back door, then put me on the ground and pushed me into the car by pressing my hat.

"You I hate it. How could Say And die. "

With the door closing, vaguely, I seem to hear him add another sentence after what he said before. But at that time, I lost my coquettish mind completely because of the severe stomach pain that rose again. I could only shrink in the back seat and shiver, and I missed the opportunity to confirm with him.

I don't usually get sick easily. Even if I get sick, I'll recover soon. At most, I'll be very active in two days at most. But that time of acute gastritis, I hung water in the hospital for three days. My mother asked for a day off with the part-time unit, then how can not leave, can only let Sheng Minou accompany me in the hospital.

Hanging water is five or six hours, I have a bed, tired can sleep, but Sheng min gull can only sit on the uncomfortable wooden chair, has been observing the infusion situation, tired also can not have a good rest.

The next day after the infusion, I actually felt much better and the fever subsided. When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was Sheng min gull.

He supported his chin, elbows on the edge of my bed, slightly tilted his head to stare at the infusion bag above, looking a bit bored and tired.

I made a move, and he found me awake and turned his eyes.

After the pain was far away, I had a new understanding of life and life. I began to love everything in this world, the snow outside the window, the chirping birds, the noisy crowd, my mother and Sheng min gull.

Especially my mother and Sheng min ou.

I used the hand with the infusion needle to pull Sheng min gull's sleeve, and my heart gave birth to a soft, full of emotions, and some strange self moved.

"Brother, when I grow up, I will be filial to you and my mother." My physical strength has not fully recovered, which makes my voice weak, but it is clear enough for Sheng min gull to hear clearly.

Sheng min gull propped up his chin, raised his eyebrows slightly, and raised his lips in a funny way.

"Filial to me?"

I'm afraid that he won't believe me. I'm afraid that he will not believe me. I'll tighten my fingers unconsciously and accentuate his way: "well, when I grow up and work and earn money, I'll treat you very well, better than others."

Children are very naive. They think that they can work when they grow up, and money can make people happy. At that time, I didn't think that there was another possibility in my life. When I grew up, I not only failed to contribute to the society, but also became a burden to the society probably.

Sheng min gull has been staring at me for a long time, and the astonishment in his eyes has been smoothed down a little, and all of them have turned into carelessness.

He said, "OK, whatever you want."

For him, it was just a child's words, I'm afraid from the moment he heard it, he didn't want to keep it in mind. But for me, I remember every scene of that day clearly. Every word came from my heart, and there was no adulteration.

Sheng min Ou always felt that all my words and deeds to him, those annoying, pestering and annoying things, were all because of the immoral love that could not be publicized in my mouth. Qi Yang and I died all our lives, and now the field is all out of his abnormal desire to monopolize him.

It's not.

At least not all of them.

I treat him in part because he is my beloved, and partly because he has always been my beloved brother.

I said I would treat him well, I would take care of him for my father, and I would never break my promise.

Even if he is not rare.

Secondly, I found that the soup was overflowing on the kitchen, but I couldn't find anything on the kitchen.

At the same time, the sound from the bedroom, I looked at the time, guess it should be Sheng min gull wake up, quickly turn off the fire, to the bedroom direction quickly walk.Across the dining room and into the hallway, I stopped, just opposite the four eyes of the Sheng min gull coming out of the bedroom. He didn't seem to expect that I was still there, holding the doorknob and looking at me in a daze, which seemed a bit ridiculous.

"Hi." I said hello to him. "I've cooked porridge. Would you like some

Well, do you have That's it, little star? Just give me some, will you? QAQ