Flying Gulls Never Land

How to deal with the secret love object knowing his mind? If it is a pair of young men and women, perhaps you can boldly confess, whether it is a success or failure after the event, at least not a bad love.

But what about two men? What if they are brothers who are not related by blood?

At the age of 16, Sheng Minou realized my feelings for him and unilaterally cut off contact with me.

His avoidance made me frustrated and unwilling. Since he doesn't see me and doesn't answer my phone, I'll go to see him face to face.

I lied to my mother that she was ill and asked her to take a day off from school. She knew that I had a heavy study and a lot of pressure. It happened that my grades were good. Although I couldn't see what was wrong with me, she still asked for leave.

As soon as my mother left, I went to Sheng min Ou's school. All the way, I was jubilant for the upcoming meeting.

But when I heard about his classroom and ran to find him, the reality was not as good as I imagined.

Through the huge glass window, I can see Sheng min Ou sitting in the back of the classroom, and beside him, sitting Qiyang. They were so close that they seemed to be whispering something intimately.

I stand in the corridor, feeling absurd and a little helpless, more is a little bit of jealousy.

Jealousy is like a black flame, almost burning my reason.

During this period, Sheng min gull seemed to have a sense, and took a look at me. I met his eyes nervously. My heart was both joyful and sour. But he just swept at will, and soon he looked back, as if he didn't see me at all, or he saw me only as if I didn't exist.

He looked at Qi Yang so attentively, talked to him and showed a smile to him. Qi Yang said words, suddenly excited to hold Sheng min gull's hand, Sheng min gull just glanced, but there was no resistance.

I gritted my teeth and glared at their hands. My mind was like a volcanic eruption, and I was swept by a raging, burning emotion.

He didn't want to see me, but he was willing to accept Qi Yang's approach. He didn't want me. He was robbed

Is it true that as Qi Yang said, birds of a feather flock together, and Sheng min gulls are only willing to be together with their own kind?

Behind him came a deliberate low voice of conversation: "isn't that Sheng min ou and Qi Yang?"

I looked back. Two boys were smoking on the railing behind me. Maybe I saw Sheng min Ou through the window, so they began to gossip.

"In order to hide from Qiyang, I had to move outside. I heard that he kept sticking to him all the time. I would be killed by my eyes if I spoke to him..." Another boy shook his head, full of disgust, "it's just something wrong. It's bad luck to be liked by him."

"But don't you think Sheng min Ou talks and laughs with him? What if someone else's Jin Cheng finally moved the University bully's heart

"I don't understand. I don't discriminate against this kind of person, do I? But I think Qi Yang is abnormal and particularly gloomy. I dare not refuse to be entangled with him. I feel that he can die with me in minutes. "

"Really, really!" His viewpoint immediately got as like as two peas. "Qi Yang's eyes are exactly the same as those who don't kill your family. I sometimes dare not speak to Sheng min, and I'm afraid of being mentally ill. If I could be stabbed with a knife behind my back, it would be uneconomical."

Cold limbs, chest blocked a breath, difficult to relax. Standing outside the classroom, I called Sheng min ou. Just across a window and a wall, I saw him take out his mobile phone, looked at it coldly, and then pressed a key to flip it over and throw it aside. At the same time, my mobile phone is sending out the prompt voice that the number dialed has been turned off.

Qi Yang saw his action and seemed to be curious about who was calling.

Sheng min gull said something to him. Qi Yang glanced at the mobile phone on the desk, and suddenly approached Sheng min ou and spoke softly in his ear.

Sheng min gull did not move, let him approach, the relationship between posture, I can not see Sheng min gull's expression, but since he can tolerate Qi Yang so close to him, it is enough to show that he does not hate this.

If he hates a person, he won't give the other party any chance, cut off all contact, put his attitude on the surface, and never be sloppy It's like to me.

He doesn't hate Qi Yang, but he hates me.

I didn't stay in Sheng min Ou's school for a long time. When I got home, I fell into bed. I didn't know how. After that, I really had a disease.

When my mother came home, she said that I was completely burnt out, crying and saying that she hurt. After I woke up, I had no memory at all, and I couldn't rule out the possibility of her exaggeration. However, I lay at home for two days and lost a lot of weight.

Go to class again, the teacher saw me, said if not good, all rest two days, don't force. At that time, looking in the mirror, I can't imagine that a person can become such a person in such a short period of time.

My mood appeared not very good tendency, bored, irritable, depressed, hyperactive, unable to sleep, but the body because of not enough rest and exhausted. I checked the Internet and said that I had a manic depression tendency. At the same time, there was an anti suicide hotline. I stare at that string of numbers for a long time, but I don't write it down.Suicide is not enough. I have a foundation.

My mother thought that what made me so haggard was study. Where did she think that what caused me to lose weight was lovelorn.

Lovelorn makes people sad, others lose at most one object, I am lovelorn not only lose an object, but also catch up with a brother.

Adolescent children easily rebellious, others rebellious do not read bubble Internet bar, I rebellious can be fierce, I want to bubble Sheng min gull.

During the day, I am a good student in the eyes of teachers and classmates, and a good son in my mother's eyes. I study hard and make progress day by day. It seems that I don't have any haze.

In the evening, I call Sheng min Ou over and over again, but the cold mechanical female voice is always welcome to me. I know he won't answer my phone, but it's like a habit. It's a fixed ceremony. If you don't call, you always feel that something is missing.

I'm sorry to be a bad student in school.

I didn't talk nonsense to him. I was beaten down with one blow and was given a warning.

Good students are very preferential at this time. No one thinks I should be responsible for it. They also give me various excuses, such as "great learning pressure", "Self-protection" and "the other party often bullies primary school students", so as to comfort me not to put it in my mind.

However, in the face of a painless warning, the senior who took my fist was unwilling and put it in his heart. After school a few days later, the other party found a few outside the school gangsters to teach me a lesson and blocked me in the alley.

Two fists are hard to beat with four hands, not to mention seven * * 10 hands. I was beaten to the ground in the muddy lane, can not get up, those people beat enough, swearing away.

I took a rest and got up by myself. I didn't go to the hospital. I didn't go home. With amazing willpower, I staggered to shengminou's rental house.

After thinking about it, I thought I was sick.

I waited in front of his house, sitting on the door in a daze, until evening, waiting for him to return.

Why do you want to go to him? I didn't think about it at that time. Later, I had a long time to think about it. However, the mood had already dissipated and could not grasp the clue.

But in fact, it is not difficult to guess that it is to show off a hero to let important people see their miserable situation with the psychology of a child? Of course not, so aggrieved, so embarrassed, so far away, just want to see the other party for their own heartache.

Even from small to large, Sheng min Ou didn't show any emotion to me.

Footstep sound from far to near, until a pair of shoes stopped in front of me, I slowly raised my head.

Sheng min gull looked down at me with no surprise in his eyes. Of course, there was no heartache I had been looking forward to.

I grinned at him, but because of the wound at the corner of my mouth, I frowned painfully.

"Brother, I was beaten. It hurts so much..."

I went to pull his trouser leg, he was not moved, just gently said: "get out of the way."

We haven't seen each other for two months. That's the first thing he said when he saw me.

After sitting for too long, I stood up a little staggered, holding the door to finally stand firm.

"Brother, no matter how angry I make you, I'll apologize. Don't do that." I pursed my lips and almost begged, "don't ignore me."

Sheng min Ou looked at me for a long time and said, "you didn't make me angry. I just don't want to see you. Go home and never come again. "

I didn't expect him to be so straightforward that I didn't respond to it in a moment. He didn't even give me a chance to pretend that nothing happened.

What he wants is to throw all the "out of control" out of his world, along with this troublesome and annoying fire.

Seeing that I didn't move, he simply pulled me aside and took out the key to unlock the lock. It was as if I was a garbage floating from nowhere, blocking the road. Just kick it away at will, and there is no need to pay attention to it.

No matter what I do, he has already made up his mind not to let me go. So why should I pretend to be my younger brother?

"I like you." I saw him lock the action of a meal, the heart has no reason to rise a happy, "is not the younger brother to the elder brother like that."

He stood still for two seconds at the door, closed his eyes and pressed the fire path: "that's enough. Go back. Don't come again."

If he told me to go away, I would. But that day I was like crazy, fearlessly challenging the limit of his patience.

"Don't you think it's dirty to your ears? It's disgusting for my brother to fall in love with him. "

He held the doorknob and finally gave up the old, rusty lock that was too hard to open and turned to me with a cool, sarcastic smile.

"Since you know it, you shouldn't say it."

He thought I was dirty and disgusting. There was a sharp pain in my heart, and I decided to stay there. I thought, maybe I had something wrong with my fight. They broke my heart.I had always thought that "heartache" was just an adjective, but I didn't expect that one day, it actually had tearing pain without any external force.

After a long pause, I said, "yes, I should keep this secret all my life. At least I can be a brother with you. Now you don't want to see me at all, do you? "

"I thought my attitude was obvious." Sheng min gull a pair as long as I can walk, he does not suggest to say more ugly appearance.

I said: "then why can you accept Qi Yang's presence around you? Because you like him more, or because Can he satisfy your perverted * * "

He squinted and after a moment asked me, "what do you say?"

The sound line is lower and more dangerous.

I'm plucking the beard of a beast. I know I'm looking for death, but I can't stop.

"I can do what Qi Yang can do. If a monster can only love a monster, then I will be a monster. " I said quietly, showing the art knife that I had been carrying behind me.

He looked at me and didn't stop.

"Monster..." He murmured, "so what are you going to do? Did you kill me? "

I shook my head. "No, I want to be that cat." The cat that he pitied and loved even after death. Sheng min gull was stunned for a moment. After I cut my arm, he quickly understood what I meant. His eyes widened slightly and his pupils shrank.

Blood gushed out of the wound instantly, dripping on the dirty ground. Looking at a little bit of blood like plum blossom on the ground, I felt depressed and irritable for a long time in my heart, and even talked about many things in an instant. I finally know why so many people suffer from depression and self mutilation. Although the symptoms are not cured, the pain can be transferred.

Sheng min gull looked at the blood on the ground and said in a very low voice, "Lu Feng, you idiot."

Without waiting for me to react, he rushed up and gave me a punch. He smashed my face to one side, and the art knife fell off because of the sudden attack. He hit me mercilessly. He was like an enraged Beast and lost his sense.

I fell to the ground, and he put his knee on my back and hit me with my hair.

"Brother Stop fighting... " I began to beg for mercy, and fear haunted my body and mind, and made me admit without backbone, "fight again, I'm going to die..."

I thought I could bear it, but it was just a child's naive idea.

"Don't you just want to die?" He picked up my head, gasped, disgusted, "want to be a monster?"? It's up to you? You deserve it

"I was wrong..." I hold my head and I feel dizzy I'll never dare. "

Sheng Minou beat me to death. If you want to say that I was only a primary skin injury before, then his fists and feet have basically made me disabled.

After hitting me, he took a long breath and stood up, as if the whole person relaxed a lot.

"Go back, I don't need another cat."

There was a rustle of paper friction. A moment later, he put 100 yuan into my pocket and said that he would let me take a taxi to the hospital.

When the little stars all over my head subsided, I got up from the ground and didn't go to the hospital. I bought some gauze from the nearby drugstore. After hemostasis, I took a car and went home injured.

When I got home, my mother came back from the night shift and almost scared her into a heart attack. Trembling, she examined my injury and asked why. I pushed the pot on the head of the senior students who had a grudge against me, saying that they were all beaten up by punks.

My mother killed the school in the second day. The teacher must give me an explanation. Soon, the senior was dissuaded from quitting, and I never saw her again.