I Heard You Still Love Her

That night, Xiao Ruoyan hugged Yan Zhilan, humming a song like he was a teenager.

"The most romantic thing I can think of is to grow old with you slowly..."

Xiao Ruoyan always had a lot of ambitions when she was young. When she once walked on campus with Xiaoyan holding hands, she vowed to tell her.

"I want to work hard to give you the best life in the future and let my family rest assured that we are together."

"Xiaoyan, I must make you happy."

...

She wrote songs desperately, staying up day and night, having dinner after dinner, and drinking glass after glass overdrafted her body.

It's really now.

She just understood.

Their happiness is very simple, it is two people together.

It's just two people together.

The moonlight spread, spreading over the two of them, coating them with a sacred light. Xiaoyan looked at Xiao Ruoyan's pretentious appearance, and gently touched her cheek with her hand.

Inside, what was surging is a kind of strength, let Xiaoyan know that she must be strong at this time.

In the past, it was Ayan to protect her, now it is her turn to protect Ayan.

The next morning.

Because Xiaoyan is going to school last time before the winter vacation, Xiao Ruoyan is the only one in the family.

She hasn't been in a very good state, and she doesn't know what's wrong. She always has an instinct, and the dean seems to be concealing something.

As if it were some kind of confirmation, my sister came here very early. She came here at this time, and she must have specially picked Xiaoyan not to come.

My sister doesn't communicate much with Xiao Ruoyan on weekdays, although she sometimes quarrels, now, as soon as she opens the door, she sees Xiao Ruoyan standing on one side and staring at her as if waiting for a long time.

Xiao Ruoyan wore a white nightgown, a waistband was tied around her weak and slender waist, and her hair was simply tied up. She was still holding a cup in her hand and looked at her sister silently. At that moment, she was slightly Some sad and melancholy eyes, crooked eyebrows, skin that can be broken by blows, and no red lips, really killed my sister.

Yan Zhiyi has countless beautiful women. Before, she knew Xiao Ruoyan was good-looking, but she never got her beauty like this moment.

It's really like an ancient person walking out of a landscape painting, with a touch of coldness in her beauty.

Yan Zhiyi pursed her lips and squeezed out a smile: "Is Xiao Yan at home?"

Xiao Ruoyan shook her head. She looked at her sister and said softly, "Sister, do you have anything to tell me?"

It was so direct, as if he had guessed it, this made all the words of Yan Zhiyi, who had been thinking a lot of foreshadowing, blocked all the way back.

Seeing her expression like this, Xiao Ruoyan confirmed her guess. She smiled comfortingly at her sister, but she was so lonely: "My okay sister, I can bear anything, just... Xiaoyan... …"

Let her dream about the lover who can never rest assured.

"Not as bad as you think."

Sitting on the sofa, my sister took out yesterday's checklist. She took a deep breath and looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "Ayan, have you ever had liver pain before?"

Xiao Ruoyan sat there looking at the list drawn out by her sister, "It just occasionally feels stomach pain, liver..."

Her hand subconsciously touched the position of the liver.

The elder sister nodded: "Maybe you haven't paid attention. There is a little shadow here. I will take you to check it today."

Yesterday, after the examination was completed, my sister and A Yan left. The dean said many things to her in private: "Mr. Yan, look at this, I look like a tumor. I will take her to check again tomorrow, it's just—" She helped her glasses: "The liver is one of the most common sites for tumors, and benign tumors are relatively rare."

At that time, Yan Zhiyi felt that her hands were cold, as if they were not bloody.

The dean looked at her: "I want to ask, is your sister Xiao often sentimental? As the saying goes, it hurts the liver..."

The elder sister basically didn't listen to the latter words, but she felt a pain in her heart.

Sentimental?

During the ten years of separation, most people couldn't resist. How could she not be worried, how could she be unkind?

When going home.

Yan Zhiyi was always at a loss, with hollow eyes, sitting on the sofa drinking sullenly.

She hasn't told Lan Lan about this. My sister knows about the relationship between Lan Lan and Xiao Ruoyan. After all, she hasn't finished the inspection, so everything can't be too pessimistic.

However, perhaps because of Lanlan, it is easier to empathize.

My sister wanted to ask both parents.

Ten years of separation.

Just because of the same gender.

Because both are women.

One committed suicide by slashing his wrists, and another suffocated with illness all over his body.

Obviously should have been such a happy ten years, but because of the obstruction of the two sides separated, the parents who gave birth to them, if they knew all this, would they regret it?

On the way to the hospital.

My sister was a little nervous, her hands holding the steering wheel even trembled slightly, but Xiao Ruoyan was very calm, but she couldn't worry about Xiaoyan, "She is going home for dinner at noon."

"I told Lanlan to ask her to go to my house. You and I will go to the unit to meet a music-related customer." Yan Zhiyi had arranged it a long time ago. Lanlan was very happy when she heard that the party was about to come, and specifically asked her and Xiao Ruoyan to return early .

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, she looked at her sister's trembling hand and smiled slightly: "Sister, I'm really fine."

Yan Zhiyi nodded, "Yes, I will be fine when the inspection is over."

Xiao Ruoyan's current body is really not ideal, even if it is adjusted, it will take a long time.

Xiao Ruoyan looked ahead and said softly, "Even if it is vicious, I am not afraid."

Yan Zhiyi's heart trembled. She looked at Xiao Ruoyan, and Xiao Ruoyan looked at her eyes: "Sister, for the sake of Xiaoyan, I will definitely not die."

Her girl.

I fell in love with her from the first sight.

Ten years of entanglement.

Give and sacrifice for her time and time again.

Why is she willing to leave her behind?

Whether it is life or death, she will never leave Xiaoyan.

A person will always need a lot of miracles throughout her life. She believes that even the worst result will defeat her.

Love can create miracles.

Xiao Ruoyan and her sister kept Lan Lan from the inspection.

She knows that her second child's physical examination is not good, but Lanlan has always been very optimistic. She feels that she is still young, and the future will be so long. How about so many of them, shouldn't it be enough to serve her together?

It will be fine, everything will be fine.

When Xiao Yan came from get off work, she didn't even wash her hands when she entered the house. She shouted several times, "Ayan? Ayan?"

Lan Lan hurriedly called her: "She and her sister have not come back yet, are you tired? Are you hungry?"

Haven't come back yet.

Xiaoyan's eyes were a little erratic. Lan Lan was afraid that she would think too much, so he hurriedly stopped her: "Come on, I'm frying the vegetarian meat I'm good at. Last time my second child also said that he likes to eat, do you want to learn it?"

Now I can only use Xiao Ruoyan to divert Xiao Yan's attention.

Xiao Yan nodded, she retracted her gaze and walked to the kitchen.

Lan Lan was already very familiar with her sister's house, as if occupying the position of the hostess.

In the past, she was particularly afraid of Xiaoyan talking to her, although with a playful nature, she was somewhat of a guilty conscience.

It was like that in high school.

Xiao Yan is gentle and gentle to everyone, even if someone says a little too much, she won't be angry, she always smiled and passed away.

But there is always an invisible barrier between that smile.

But now, Lan Lan really hoped that Xiaoyan could make a quarrel with herself. After she said several times, Xiaoyan didn't respond much. There was only the sound of a frying pan in her ears.

Lan Lan said to herself for a while. She sighed and looked at Xiaoyan: "It's almost done, let's go, fourth, let's go to the living room and sit down."

Sitting on the sofa.

After Xiaoyan held the hot tea Lan Lan gave her, she realized how cold her hands were.

When Lan Lan handed her fruit, she felt the ice-like skin and shivered: "Did you have a cold?"

Xiaoyan's face was a little pale, she shook her head, and whispered to Lan Lan, "I'm fine."

She has always been like this.

This happens when you drink alcohol and feel uncomfortable.

But as for Ayan, she never disliked her, on the contrary, she felt distressed.

I still remember when I was in high school.

Xiaoyan was greedy for cold once, and her aunt ate ice cream before she came. The next day she could hardly get up because of the pain.

A Yan was called by the vocal teacher very early and said that there was something to discuss, and everyone hadn't woke up when she left.

Before the class, the boss and Lan Lan called her once, Xiaoyan lay on the bed, her face pale as paper, weakly: "Give me a day off, I can't get up."

The boss and Lanlan looked a little anxious, but the children were fine at that time. Xiaoyan refused to go to the infirmary, so she could only fix the hot water bottle for her, and then put the brown sugar water aside, and asked for some advice. Go to class.

It's almost time for class.

Xiao Ruoyan saw the two of them coming together without Xiaoyan, she was stunned: "Why is one missing?"

Lan Lan told her about Xiaoyan, Xiao Ruoyan didn't even think about it, grabbed his coat and walked out. Seeing that class was about to begin, the boss quickly asked her: "Why are you going? ?"

"Just say I have diarrhea." Xiao Ruoyan dropped a word and left without looking back.

Everyone in the dormitory knows her, don't look at her usually not talking, but as long as the decision is made, no one can say anything.

Xiao Ruoyan ran back to the dormitory. Fortunately, she was always excellent in character and learning, and the teacher at the door saw her and put it on without asking anything.

open the door.

Xiao Ruoyan was panting, and at a glance she saw the little face lying on the bed, frowning and shrunken into a ball of shrimps. Xiaoyan was extremely uncomfortable. She felt like there was a piece of ice in her lower abdomen, and the whole body was a little bit inside her. Melted, sucking all her heat away.

When she heard the door was opened, she thought it was the teacher of Zha Su, gritted her teeth and looked up to see Xiao Ruoyan, Xiao Yan was stunned, and then her eyes turned red.

To Lanlan, to the boss, she can pretend to be strong.

But for Ayan, she just can't.

That one is different, it has been there since a very early time.

Xiao Ruoyan was very distressed. She went to flush the motherwort and poured the brown sugar water beside Xiaoyan that had been cold and had not been drunk. She made a new cup and coaxed her to drink it one bite at a time.

Don't look at Xiaoyan's usually dark belly, not afraid of heaven and earth, but in her heart, she is still quite afraid of A Yan's stern face.

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her with a black face: "Hurry up and drink, or take you to the hospital."

Xiao Yan shivered in fear. She had been picky eaters from that time. Xiao Ruoyan was distressed and angry. He hugged her in his arms and coaxed her little by little.

I drank the water and medicine.

Xiao Ruoyan went to search the boss, Lan Lan, and her own hot water bottle again, and put them all on Xiaoyan's bed, "Is it better?"

She touched Yan Zhilan's skin just now, and she felt cold and bone-chilling.

Xiao Yan shook her head, the little baby shrank under the quilt, looking at her pitifully.

Those big eyes blinked and blinked, and she whispered, "It's not warm enough."

Hey.

At this time, she actually acted like a baby to her.

Xiao Ruoyan took off her coat, she opened the quilt and lay in, Xiao Yan withdrew into her arms very skillfully.

The love of adolescence is cautious and young.

Xiao Yan leaned her head on Xiao Ruoyan's chest, listening to her powerful heartbeat, smelling the fragrance on her body, feeling much better.

Xiao Ruoyan hugged Xiaoyan tightly, trying to warm her quickly, but it seemed like he was holding a block of ice, and couldn't get warm.

She's so cold, let alone Xiaoyan.

A Yan wanted to make Xiao Yan get better quickly, she sat up and started rubbing Xiao Yan's coldest feet.

I took off my socks and rubbed them lightly. They were really the same as if I had taken them out of the refrigerator overnight.

Xiaoyan blushed, she was a little shy, and shook her head: "It's okay, no need."

"Do you know you are shy now?" Xiao Ruoyan snorted coldly, "you dare to try ice cream **** in the future."

There is Lanlan.

As soon as the winter comes, two people are like two young children. They actually eat more than to see who can eat faster. Did they graduate from a small class in kindergarten?

When I first fell in love, I was shy and embarrassed. Xiao Yan didn't exist in front of Xiao Ruoyan like the current "Hedong's wife", with the burden of a girl.

But her burden was completely opened by Xiao Ruoyan today.

After rubbing for a long time, it did not feel warm.

Xiao Ruoyan simply unbuttoned her clothes, grabbed her feet, and placed them on her chest.

The moment the skin touched.

Yan Zhilan felt that her shame was about to ignite, her foot... was touching Ah Yan... Ah Yan...

Xiao Ruoyan didn't think so much at all, she felt that it was effective, "It's better, isn't it?"

"Yes, right..."

More than just a little better, Xiaoyan's brain rumbling.

Who is she? Where is she?

In a short while, the temperature rose, and even Xiao Yan felt a fire burning down the soles of her feet. Xiao Ruoyan also felt it. She sighed and looked up and saw Xiao Yan's expression change. She met as soon as she wanted to talk. Her affectionate eyes.

"You, are you alright?"

Only then did Xiao Ruoyan realize that her actions seemed a bit "inappropriate." She didn't think about it so much just now, and now she flushed all of a sudden, and quickly put Xiaoyan's feet down.

Unfortunately, it is too late.

When she backed away, Xiaoyan came over like a shadow. She held Ayan's cheek and looked into her eyes: "I'm not good."

Xiao Ruoyan shivered, her ears were red, and Xiaoyan stared at her with a pair of eyes: "I know a better way to heat it up faster."

Now, it's too late to say anything.

The boy's kiss, although pure and without any skill, is really enough to burn a person completely.

In the end, Xiao Ruoyan felt that his body was like a stove, and the initiator actually smiled and leaned in her arms and said, "Next time I'm cold, can you still use this method?"

...

Remember the past.

There were tears in Xiao Yan's eyes. Lan Lan was panicked at the first glance, and quickly went to get a tissue and handed it to her: "What's wrong? What's wrong? Oh, fourth, don't think too much, sister just brought it. She went to meet the client."

Xiao Yan sniffed, she looked at Lan Lan: "No."

Lan Lan looked at Xiao Yan in a daze.

Xiao Yan's head slowly dropped, her voice was low: "Lan Lan, I met her when I was 15 years old, and now I'm almost 30."

Lan Lan heard the dull pain in her heart.

"I have loved her for half my life, she can't hide from me." Xiaoyan said softly, "She must be uncomfortable somewhere. My sister took her to the hospital."

Lan Lan shook his head, still denying: "No, no, Ayan just adjust it."

Xiao Yan looked up at her, "Is that right?"

Clearly tears were rolling in the circles of her eyes, but she was still smiling hard: "Hope."

Her Yan.

For her, it has long been in her heart.

A Yan's every move, even a look in his eyes, couldn't escape Xiaoyan's eyes.

She knew that she could not sleep all night last night, even though she was lying motionless in bed and breathing steady, Xiao Yan still knew that she was not asleep.

She also stayed up all night.

once Upon a time.

Xiao Yan read a sentence, no matter how strong the love, after a long time, it will not be as passionate as it was at the beginning.

Sometimes touching each other is like touching your right hand with your left hand.

But when something happens, it hurts like digging meat from one's own body.

A Yan is the person next to her pillow, how could she not know, how could she not understand.

Xiao Yan didn't want Lan Lan to see her tears.

She sat with her for a while for dinner, and halfway through, Lan Lan received a call from her sister saying that she would go home later, which would take two or three hours.

After hanging up the phone, Lan Lan looked at Xiaoyan embarrassedly, seeing a client who had seen her for so long, and now she seemed to believe the fourth child.

Xiaoyan smiled: "It's okay, I happen to be out for a trip."

Lan Lan hurriedly followed one step: "Where are you going? I will be with you."

She was afraid that the fourth child would not be able to figure it out.

Xiaoyan looked at her: "I'm going to see Dr. Xu, do you dare to go? My sister will tear you up."

Lan Lan:...

Still not at ease, Lan Lan kept going around and even wanted to challenge her sister's mighty power, but Xiaoyan smiled and patted her on the shoulder, saying, "Lan Lan, don't worry, I'll be fine."

"But..." Lan Lan looked into her eyes, and Xiao Yan said softly, "From today on, I must take good care of my body. If A Yan has anything, I have to serve her, don't I? She is that person, If you are not used to being too close to her, only I can."

When she said this, she seemed to be complaining and sweet, but she forced out Lan Lan's tears.

Xiaoyan is out after all.

Lan Lan sat at home to prepare the food, and waited on the sofa for another half an hour.

She is like an ant on a hot pan, fidgeting.

She didn't dare to think, if the second child really has something, what should the fourth child do...

But...but...

My sister and Xiao Ruoyan are back.

When he heard the sound of opening the door, Lan Lan bounced off the sofa and almost rushed to the door. The speed was too fast, and the first sister who entered the door was startled: "What are you doing?"

Lan Lan looked at her anxiously. Xiao Ruoyan followed her sister. After she entered the room, she made a move exactly the same as when Xiaoyan entered the room, "Xiaoyan? Xiaoyan?"

Lan Lan was stunned: "The fourth oldest said to go to Dr. Xu."

After a moment of stunned, Xiao Ruoyan looked at her: "What is she looking for Dr. Xu for?"

...

The wind whizzed in my ears.

Xiao Ruoyan quickly walked downstairs holding her mobile phone, and she called Dr. Xu.

The phone only rang, and Dr. Xu connected, "Ruoyan? Are you going home? Are you looking for Xiaoyan? She just left twenty minutes ago."

Xiao Ruoyan was full of anxiety, "She didn't come back!"

Her voice became hoarse because of the anxiety. Xu Xiaohe quickly said: "Don't worry. She said that you like to eat strawberries next to the school and buy them. You will go home after you buy them."

Xiao Ruoyan immediately opened the taxi door at the door and went in. While telling the driver the address, Xiao Ruoyan asked, "Did she tell you anything?"

Doctor Xu was stunned: "No, just chatted a few words."

Xiaoyan came to her, her mood was not very good.

Xu Xiaohe didn't know about Xiao Ruoyan. After so long of treatment, they had become friends a long time ago, and they thought it was because they had a little awkwardness.

However, Xiao Yan only sat in her studio for a while. In the middle of the journey, Dr. Xu answered several calls from patients. Most of them were telling her about the pains of life, mostly because of feelings. Dr. Xu was very patient, and Xiao Yan was very patient. Listening quietly, after a while, Dr. Xu hung up the phone and looked at her apologetically: "I'm sorry, I took a vacation a while ago, so a lot of work has piled up recently."

Xiao Yan shook her head and smiled: "It's okay."

Dr. Xu sighed, "Hey, in this society, I don’t know what’s going on. When the two are together, it’s nothing good. Look at the phone call just now. Her husband is sick. She waits every day. Make her face and cry for the wronged woman."

"Birth, old age, sickness and death is normal." Xiaoyan said faintly, "If one day Ayan gets sick, I will take care of her. Even if she makes me look like that, she should be happy."

As long as she is there.

Anything is good.

...

Dr. Xu: "When I left, I asked her if she was on her mind? She was still laughing at me. What's wrong, Xiaoyan? You quarreled?"

...

Xiao Ruoyan was very anxious and didn't have time to explain to Doctor Xu. After a few simple words, she hung up the phone and her destination was almost there.

She paid the money quickly, got off the car and ran to the school gate.

The strawberries in that fruit shop were indeed her favorite to eat when she was a student.

Xiao Ruoyan walked fast, but she hadn't reached the place yet, and she saw a familiar little figure on the side of the road far away.

Crowded streets by the side of the road.

On the ground was Xiao Ruoyan's favorite strawberry, and her Xiaoyan sat on the ground alone holding herself, while looking at the distance, she silently wiped the tears from her face.

She is uncomfortable.

She is in pain.

Her heart was bleeding, but no one could say.

In the past, Xiao Ruoyan was her god, Xiaoyan could tell her anything, but now she can't.

She couldn't imagine what she would do if the sky fell. She really couldn't bear the weight of parting.

Approaching step by step.

Before she knew it, Xiao Ruoyan's chest seemed to be pressed against a big rock, and her distressedness was about to be torn apart. Standing in front of Xiao Yan, she slowly squatted down, Xiao Yan was startled, and carried her head up. Looking at her with teary eyes.

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her red eyes, wiped away the tears on her face, and squatted down. She stretched out her arms and hugged Xiaoyan firmly, "It's alright, no more crying, huh?"

She was clearly comforting her lover, but she didn't know when, Xiao Ruoyan had already burst into tears.

The author has something to say: Happy New Year's Day everyone.

Happy new year, okay~