I Was Confessed to by the Person I Was Admiring

Chapter 92: I’m tired

The next day, I was made aware of how angry Dennis was.

“Hey, why is this servant following you around so much?”

While having breakfast in my room and changing clothes with Dora, I noticed something was off when we were about to leave the room. Dennis was more on edge than usual, and there was a young boy who seemed like a servant or page standing next to her.

I asked what was going on since we had plans to stay in today.

“It’s for surveillance.”

The response I got was firm. I could tell that she was very angry.

“But why do we need so many people if we’re not going out?”

“It’s at Jeremiah-sama’s orders.”

“What? Jeremiah?”

I repeated my question, looking at the composed faces of the servants. I thought of a reason why he would do something like this and came up with one.

“Did something happen again?”

“Yes. There was an explosion in the capital city right after Lorraine-sama went out yesterday. I couldn’t bear the thought of something happening to you, so I told Jeremiah-sama everything last night.” 

Her serious words made me feel a chill throughout my body. In other words, I was out at such a dangerous time. On top of that, Jeremiah found out about it.

I froze in place with a double fear.

What a mess. I admit that I did something reckless, but it didn’t have to pile up like this.

I’m already feeling pretty down about what happened yesterday.

I returned a scowl in silence and headed to my room.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m feeling a headache coming on, so I’ll rest a little longer.”

Or rather, my whole body feels tired. I think I just changed clothes, but I’m already tired of everything. It’s the first time since I was born in this world that I’ve felt so tired after just a few steps out of the room.

Unintentionally, a chuckle escaped from my mouth.

I have accumulated too much mental fatigue. I want to stay home and rest today.

“I see. Then I’ll continue to stand guard in front of the door. Another person will come in the afternoon, so I’ll introduce you then.”

“…Okay.”

It was too much trouble to even reply, so I leaned against the door and returned to my room, surprising Dora. 

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Ah, it’s getting red outside.

Looking up from my book, I vaguely thought that. In the end, I spent most of the day cooped up inside. I didn’t intend to spend my time like this, but I was more tired than I thought, and I didn’t feel like going out.

I immersed myself in books and took naps when I got tired, not wanting to think about yesterday or Jeremiah. I also had all my meals in my room.

“I seem to be remembering things from the past.”

The past referred to here is not the past as Lorraine, but the time when I lived in Japan. I used to spend a lot of time cooped up in my room back then. Since I didn’t particularly like exercise, being cooped up wasn’t particularly painful, but not having any friends was lonely.

But now, I can do what I like.

Yet there seemed to be no change in essence.

“Perhaps my personality from over there is still lingering.”

This is a feeling that can only be understood by someone born with memories. That’s why Paolo may have been so fixated on me. Otherwise, this wouldn’t have happened.

I let out a big sigh.

“I guess it’s time to go home. Jeremiah will be relieved too.” 

I don’t want to break my bond with Paolo, but I can’t respond to his feelings. If I continue to be involved with him, I will end up hurting him.

Because…

“I only love Jeremiah. I want to be with him forever, hear his voice, see his figure… I don’t want to give myself to anyone else. Well, maybe that’s going too far.”

I chuckled softly and sighed again, then glanced at the door. I thought someone might come and ask about dinner soon.

“Hmm?”

I wonder if it’s just my imagination, but it seems like the door is slightly open. Could it be that someone heard my murmurs just now? I’m pretty sure there should be a guard watching over the princess’s room like the one on the door, under Jeremiah’s orders. I haven’t checked it thoroughly, but I have a feeling.

——No, no, I kept my distance and spoke quietly enough, so it should be okay…

When I convinced myself of that, the door slowly opened. I almost groaned and quickly covered my mouth with my fist.

As I wondered how to react, there was Jeremiah standing there, illuminated by the evening sun shining in from outside.

I felt like screaming out loud. 

While I was wondering why he was quietly there, I couldn’t help but be fascinated by the beautiful image that unfolded, as if a beautiful death god or devil had appeared.

“Uh, well, I wasn’t going to ask.”

Then, the beautiful devil said with a shy face.

I was so surprised that I felt like spitting blood in my head for the first time in a while, and I followed him with my eyes as he entered.

Since it’s not often that I see him like this, I enjoy it thoroughly. But then I noticed.

Why is Jeremiah so shy? I thought about what was making him shy and finally realized it.

It was about the words I accidentally blurted out earlier.

“… Did you hear me?”

I asked while looking at Jeremiah’s tense face as he approached.

Now that I’ve noticed, it’s not a time for observation. Please don’t say that you heard everything――!

“Oh, well, from around the time you decided to go home…”

I covered my face with both hands at his awkward response.