Other World Assassin Life of a Man who was a Shut-in

[Shingu, this time there are 8 of them, can you handle it?]
 [It's them again Nii-chan?. It won’t really be that big of a problem no matter how many of them are there. But aren’t there are little too many of them coming out for a while now?]

It’s true that there are certainly too many of these monsters.
It’s only been a while since we entered Barris forest but the number of Rabbitsu that we have already taken care of already surpassed 50.
Zonga-san told me that there were only about 30 of them but that doesn’t seem to be the case.
But as Shingu said, it really wouldn’t matter no matter how many of these monster come.
Since monsters of this degree don't pose any problems for us.
While I was thinking about these things, Shingu had already finished the battle.

 [I’m done, Nii-chan]
 [Aa. Good job. It was a good fight.]
 [Ee~, no matter how many of these monsters it won’t matter, they are no match for me.]

Shingu said pridefully.
Acha[1], Shingu-kun is getting a little carried away.
It’s certainly true that children should be spoiled but I'm uneasy about continuing with it.
Just to be sure, I should tone it down a little.

 [Shingu, being confident is a good thing. But, excessive self-confidence can lead to carelessness and in a real battle, just a small miscue could result in death. This something that you should remember.]
 [.....Yes, I will.]

It seems that he understood what I was saying.
But, he wasn’t able to hide his unhappy expression.
Perhaps, he thought that he would get praised, so was disappointed that I gave him a small lecture. But this cannot be avoided.

 [Alright, let’s go ahead then, and as I said earlier. It really was a good fight, so don't let it get to your heart.]
 [..... Ah, Yes! Leave it to me Nii-chan!]

When I made a proper follow-up, Shingu smiled happily.
Occasionally I feel a strange desperation emanating from Shingu.
It screamed that he was hungry for approval and interaction with others…..

 [Oi, Nii-chan I'll leave you behind yo-]
 [......Aa, I'm coming.]

Well, it’s fine,
Leaving my thoughts behind, Shingu and I headed further into the forest.
A few minutes later,
When we were just about to have lunch, 
I came across a nostalgic place.

 [This is really nostalgic]
 [Nii-chan do you know this place?]
 [Ahh, yeah when I first came to this forest, I stayed for the night]

That’s right, what was in front of me was the cave that I had previously slept through the night.
At that time, if I did not find this cave then I might not have survived.
For me, it's an important place in my heart.
I did not expect that I would come here again.
Therefore, this cave should have no monsters, let's take a rest here.

 [Alright, let's take a break here for now.]

When I sad that, Shingu was discouraged,

 [Eh~, I can still go on! I don’t need a break.]
 [You have been fighting for quite some time now. If you don’t fill your stomach then you won’t be able to fight]
 [What are you talking about Nii-chan, I have never heard of such a thing!]

Ah, come to think of it.
I tend to forget sometimes, but this was a different world.

 [Weeell, to put it simply, if you're hungry, you cannot fight in your peak condition. So let’s have something to eat first and restore some of our strength, and it’s also almost time for lunch. Aren't you hungry?]

Just as I said so, I heard a sound emanate from Shingu’s stomach.
Well, it’s obvious that you're hungry.

 [Well, as I thought, you're hungry. Let's have a meal and recuperate. Moreover, I have Maria-san's special lunchbox, shall we?]

The moment I said that the lunchbox was made by Maria-san,
Shingu's demeanour of suppressing his hunger he'd been showing until now completely changed.

 [What! The lunch box was made by Maria-san? Nii-chan come on let’s have a rest right now!]

Shingu immediately ran into the cave.
Hmm, From the situation, it seems that Shingu and Maria-san do know each other. Well if you think about it Shingu’s father, Jiruga-san, and Gantt-san were best friends. In that case, it is no big surprise that Maria-san, who's Gantt-san’s wife, and Shingu would know each other. It’s quite natural.

Well, it would be bad to keep an excited Shingu waiting. I should hurry up and go.
And so I went into the cave.
Yup, the inside of the cave had not changed even a bit.
There don't seem to be any signs of monsters living here.
Thinking so, I quickly took out the two lunch boxes from the Item Box and handed one over to Shingu.

 [Ooh, I got it, I got it! I got a lunch box made by Aunty Maria after such a long time!]
 [Shingu, I know that your quite hungry but eat slowly. Don’t eat so quickly, because it would be a problem if your throat got clogged.]
 [I know Nii-chan, don’t treat me like a child!]

Despite saying such, Shingu kept eating childishly. His appearance was that of a child, in every sense of the word.

Well then, I guess should eat some as well.
Then Shingu and I finished eating the Special Maria-san Lunchbox.

 [Absolutely delicious, Aunty Maria's dishes are the best in the whole village!]

Certainly, Maria-sans cooking is quite impressive.
But it doesn’t compare to Sari!!

 [Come to think of it, you said that it's been a long time since you had Maria-san’s bento?]
 [Yes, that’s right. When dad had still not formally established the party, we often used to go out, Dad, Uncle Gantt and three of my friends. In those days Aunty Maria always made a lunch box for us!]

Indeed, so it's similar to the excursions from Japan.

 [Even after Dad formed the party Blue Wolves, from time to time, aunty would make it for us; it was even popular with the Blue Wolves! Everyone said that it was delicious!]
 [.......]
 [In those days, Dad and everyone was having fun every single day! I was also talking and playing until late into the night! All the members of the Blue wolves were really good people. They used to play around with me even though I was still a child. It was really fun in those days!]

Shingu spoke happily about those days.
But from his eyes, I saw tears flowing out.

 [......Hey, Shingu]
 [And then, And then! What is it Nii-chan!?]
 [You, you really want to go back to how it was in the old days…..]

As soon as I said those words, a silence descended as if the time had stopped.

Shingu, who was talking happily about the old days until now, was trying to reply to my words. But it didn’t seem like he had any words to say.
And finally, words came out from his mouth.

 [Wh, wh wh What are you talking about Nii-chan. I want to go back to those days? Return to those days you say? I don’t think about such things at all……..]

Stop, just stop.
Your face completely betrays what you really want to say……..

 [Shingu. It’s alright. It’s fine if you want to show your true feelings. Fortunately, there is no one else in this place. I promise that I won't say anything to the villagers. So if you want to speak what’s really in your heart, I am here for you.]

When I said so, Shingu quietens down and goes silent.
Still, I did not give up and continued to stare at him in silence.
Then, as if Shingu had made up his mind, Shingu began to let out what he kept in his heart.

 [......I want to return. If I really can return, then I want to return to the old days, but just how can I go back now! Nii-chan may not know about this but my when my Dad died. I said terrible things to the people that worried about me, to the Villagers and to Jii-chan. I said such terrible things that it's become irreparable. How can I return now that it's like that, I don't know. Since it's like that, it would be easier to just stay alone, that’s why. ]

So these are Shingu’s true thoughts .
Good thing I heard them. As I thought, Shingu and I are similar. But Shingu, I won’t allow him to turn out like me.

 [Oy Shingu, The lone wolf way that you are trying to go might seem comfortably right now, but you will definitely regret it later down the road.]
 [why, just why would you know that it will happen!?]
 [I know. Why? because it's the same path that I've walked before.]
 [.........Ehh?]
 [Well, the circumstances are completely different from yours. Since in my case, it was self-inflicted. Still, it's true that there's only regret, since I am still experiencing it, there is no mistake that this is what will happen.]

When I said so, Shingu’s face falls further. And then his body starts to tremble. Sorry about this. But I didn't mean to scare you. I gently stroked Shingu's head with my hand.

 [Shingu, you do not have to be afraid. As I said a moment ago, your circumstances are different from mine. You can still try again. Perhaps, right now, all that’s missing in you is, only a little courage.]

When I said so,
Shingu raised his head a little,

 [.....Courage?]
 [Aa, yes, as I said you need only a little. Get some courage together and talk to the Villagers and to Zonga-san, everyone back there is waiting for you.]

When I said those words, Shingu was puzzled for a moment, but immediately after he raised his face.

 [I understand Nii-chan. I, I will make sure do my best.]

Just as he said it, Shingu's face, somehow seemed a little more mature.

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[1] EN: an exclamation that's something like 'oh no' or 'uh oh' (so basically an exclamation of the realisation of a bad situation)

[Shingu, this time there are 8 of them, can you handle it?] [It's them again Nii-chan?. It won’t really be that big of a problem no matter how many of them are there. But aren’t there are little too many of them coming out for a while now?]

It’s true that there are certainly too many of these monsters.

It’s only been a while since we entered Barris forest but the number of Rabbitsu that we have already taken care of already surpassed 50.

Zonga-san told me that there were only about 30 of them but that doesn’t seem to be the case.

But as Shingu said, it really wouldn’t matter no matter how many of these monster come.

Since monsters of this degree don't pose any problems for us.

While I was thinking about these things, Shingu had already finished the battle.

 [I’m done, Nii-chan]

 [Aa. Good job. It was a good fight.]

 [Ee~, no matter how many of these monsters it won’t matter, they are no match for me.]

Shingu said pridefully.

Acha[1], Shingu-kun is getting a little carried away.

It’s certainly true that children should be spoiled but I'm uneasy about continuing with it.

Just to be sure, I should tone it down a little.

 [Shingu, being confident is a good thing. But, excessive self-confidence can lead to carelessness and in a real battle, just a small miscue could result in death. This something that you should remember.] [.....Yes, I will.]

It seems that he understood what I was saying.

But, he wasn’t able to hide his unhappy expression.

Perhaps, he thought that he would get praised, so was disappointed that I gave him a small lecture. But this cannot be avoided.

 [Alright, let’s go ahead then, and as I said earlier. It really was a good fight, so don't let it get to your heart.] [..... Ah, Yes! Leave it to me Nii-chan!]

When I made a proper follow-up, Shingu smiled happily.

Occasionally I feel a strange desperation emanating from Shingu.

It screamed that he was hungry for approval and interaction with others…..

 [Oi, Nii-chan I'll leave you behind yo-] [......Aa, I'm coming.]

Well, it’s fine,

Leaving my thoughts behind, Shingu and I headed further into the forest.

A few minutes later,

When we were just about to have lunch, 

I came across a nostalgic place.

 [This is really nostalgic]

 [Nii-chan do you know this place?]

 [Ahh, yeah when I first came to this forest, I stayed for the night]

That’s right, what was in front of me was the cave that I had previously slept through the night.

At that time, if I did not find this cave then I might not have survived.

For me, it's an important place in my heart.

I did not expect that I would come here again.

Therefore, this cave should have no monsters, let's take a rest here.

 [Alright, let's take a break here for now.]

When I sad that, Shingu was discouraged,

 [Eh~, I can still go on! I don’t need a break.]

 [You have been fighting for quite some time now. If you don’t fill your stomach then you won’t be able to fight]

 [What are you talking about Nii-chan, I have never heard of such a thing!]

Ah, come to think of it.I tend to forget sometimes, but this was a different world.

 [Weeell, to put it simply, if you're hungry, you cannot fight in your peak condition. So let’s have something to eat first and restore some of our strength, and it’s also almost time for lunch. Aren't you hungry?]

Just as I said so, I heard a sound emanate from Shingu’s stomach.Well, it’s obvious that you're hungry.

 [Well, as I thought, you're hungry. Let's have a meal and recuperate. Moreover, I have Maria-san's special lunchbox, shall we?]

The moment I said that the lunchbox was made by Maria-san,Shingu's demeanour of suppressing his hunger he'd been showing until now completely changed.

 [What! The lunch box was made by Maria-san? Nii-chan come on let’s have a rest right now!]

Shingu immediately ran into the cave.Hmm, From the situation, it seems that Shingu and Maria-san do know each other. Well if you think about it Shingu’s father, Jiruga-san, and Gantt-san were best friends. In that case, it is no big surprise that Maria-san, who's Gantt-san’s wife, and Shingu would know each other. It’s quite natural.

Well, it would be bad to keep an excited Shingu waiting. I should hurry up and go.

And so I went into the cave.

Yup, the inside of the cave had not changed even a bit.

There don't seem to be any signs of monsters living here.

Thinking so, I quickly took out the two lunch boxes from the Item Box and handed one over to Shingu.

 [Ooh, I got it, I got it! I got a lunch box made by Aunty Maria after such a long time!]

 [Shingu, I know that your quite hungry but eat slowly. Don’t eat so quickly, because it would be a problem if your throat got clogged.]

 [I know Nii-chan, don’t treat me like a child!]

Despite saying such, Shingu kept eating childishly. His appearance was that of a child, in every sense of the word.

Well then, I guess should eat some as well.Then Shingu and I finished eating the Special Maria-san Lunchbox.

 [Absolutely delicious, Aunty Maria's dishes are the best in the whole village!]

Certainly, Maria-sans cooking is quite impressive.But it doesn’t compare to Sari!!

 [Come to think of it, you said that it's been a long time since you had Maria-san’s bento?] [Yes, that’s right. When dad had still not formally established the party, we often used to go out, Dad, Uncle Gantt and three of my friends. In those days Aunty Maria always made a lunch box for us!]

Indeed, so it's similar to the excursions from Japan.

 [Even after Dad formed the party Blue Wolves, from time to time, aunty would make it for us; it was even popular with the Blue Wolves! Everyone said that it was delicious!]

 [.......]

 [In those days, Dad and everyone was having fun every single day! I was also talking and playing until late into the night! All the members of the Blue wolves were really good people. They used to play around with me even though I was still a child. It was really fun in those days!]

Shingu spoke happily about those days.But from his eyes, I saw tears flowing out.

 [......Hey, Shingu]

 [And then, And then! What is it Nii-chan!?]

 [You, you really want to go back to how it was in the old days…..]

As soon as I said those words, a silence descended as if the time had stopped.

Shingu, who was talking happily about the old days until now, was trying to reply to my words. But it didn’t seem like he had any words to say.And finally, words came out from his mouth.

 [Wh, wh wh What are you talking about Nii-chan. I want to go back to those days? Return to those days you say? I don’t think about such things at all……..]

Stop, just stop.Your face completely betrays what you really want to say……..

 [Shingu. It’s alright. It’s fine if you want to show your true feelings. Fortunately, there is no one else in this place. I promise that I won't say anything to the villagers. So if you want to speak what’s really in your heart, I am here for you.]

When I said so, Shingu quietens down and goes silent.

Still, I did not give up and continued to stare at him in silence.

Then, as if Shingu had made up his mind, Shingu began to let out what he kept in his heart.

 [......I want to return. If I really can return, then I want to return to the old days, but just how can I go back now! Nii-chan may not know about this but my when my Dad died. I said terrible things to the people that worried about me, to the Villagers and to Jii-chan. I said such terrible things that it's become irreparable. How can I return now that it's like that, I don't know. Since it's like that, it would be easier to just stay alone, that’s why. ]

So these are Shingu’s true thoughts .Good thing I heard them. As I thought, Shingu and I are similar. But Shingu, I won’t allow him to turn out like me.

 [Oy Shingu, The lone wolf way that you are trying to go might seem comfortably right now, but you will definitely regret it later down the road.]

 [why, just why would you know that it will happen!?]

 [I know. Why? because it's the same path that I've walked before.]

 [.........Ehh?]

 [Well, the circumstances are completely different from yours. Since in my case, it was self-inflicted. Still, it's true that there's only regret, since I am still experiencing it, there is no mistake that this is what will happen.]

When I said so, Shingu’s face falls further. And then his body starts to tremble. Sorry about this. But I didn't mean to scare you. I gently stroked Shingu's head with my hand.

 [Shingu, you do not have to be afraid. As I said a moment ago, your circumstances are different from mine. You can still try again. Perhaps, right now, all that’s missing in you is, only a little courage.]

When I said so,Shingu raised his head a little,

 [.....Courage?] [Aa, yes, as I said you need only a little. Get some courage together and talk to the Villagers and to Zonga-san, everyone back there is waiting for you.]

When I said those words, Shingu was puzzled for a moment, but immediately after he raised his face.

 [I understand Nii-chan. I, I will make sure do my best.]

Just as he said it, Shingu's face, somehow seemed a little more mature.

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[1] EN: an exclamation that's something like 'oh no' or 'uh oh' (so basically an exclamation of the realisation of a bad situation)