[Quick Pass] Why Don’t You Love Me

Although Shu Rui himself felt that this request was a bit weird, and in what capacity is he asking for gentleness now? But soon he found a reason for himself. Although he is not a gentle boyfriend yet, it doesn't matter, he will be able to become a regular one one day.

Wen Ya did exactly as he requested, and never went to see Kunlun again. But Kunlun would call her every day. Wen Ya would answer it at first, but she would not answer it after Shu Rui knew it, and she even blacklisted Kunlun's number.

On the phone, Wen Ya was peaceful and calm when talking with Kunlun, but her expression was not so beautiful.

After not going out, Wen Ya began to live in her house, even more house than ever before. Before, she would at least go out for a stroll, but this time she didn't go anywhere. She went back to the room after eating, then closed the door tightly, and came out again when the meal was time.

This situation lasted for about a week, and when everyone was worried about it, Wen Ya suddenly changed back. Although he still didn't go out much, but he didn't stay in the house all day and ignored anyone.

When she talks to people, it’s very sweet and normal. Shu Rui now knows that she likes gentleness. Although she didn’t officially move home, she’s pretty much the same. From time to time, knocking on the window of the gentle room to make fun of her. Wen Ya smiled and revealed two cute little pears, she was so naturally and so happy that she deceived everyone.

Every day when she shut herself in the room, Wen Ya felt painful. She clutched her head, her heart seemed to be swallowed by a terrifying monster. She couldn't resist. She struggled in her memory every day. Until the seventh day, she accidentally hit the foot of the bed. Miraculously, her pain eased.

So, can physical pain dispel the mental?

Wen Ya found a new remedy. Shu Rui is no longer her medicine, and Kunlun can't cure her disease, but she has found a good method that suits her. So every time she was tortured by memory, she cut herself and watched the blood flow out, and slowly she could calm down. In order to conceal this secret, she hid the medicine cabinet in the room, fortunately, she immediately bandaged it when she calmed down. It's just that the time of this depression is getting shorter and shorter. Before, she could keep it normal for three days with a single cut, but now, after a single cut, the wound hasn't scabbed, she can't stand it again.

Over time, more and more wounds, which makes Wen Ya have to wear long-sleeved trousers to cover up in summer. When she hurt herself, she deliberately avoided exposed parts so that she would not be discovered by her family in her daily life.

However, Wenya became more and more panicked, because she recently discovered that just cutting a cut is no longer enough to satisfy her. Sometimes she watched the wound bleeding and didn't even want to stop it, but wanted to clean the blood flow. , Has she also become clean?

She was in prison. When she fell in love with Shu Rui, she lost her memory, so there was only pain that she could not love. But now that she doesn't love Shu Rui, she has retrieved her memory, but she has to suffer from it day and night, and she is already on the verge of collapse mentally. Wen Ya even drew straight words on the bedside with lipstick every day, trying to see how many days she could be normal, and she would be sent to a mental hospital.

She is really going crazy.

When she sees her grandpa now, sometimes she can't remember who this is, and sometimes she even goes out, and when she sees a stranger, she has the urge to pounce on him and kill him. Wen Ya didn't dare to go out again, even though she knew that being bored at home would not do her any good.

If mental patients can control themselves, they are not mental patients.

But on Wen Ya's birthday, she still went out.

Both families attended her birthday party, and they booked a restaurant to celebrate her. Wen Ya sat in her chair and blew out the candle with a smile, and made three wishes: First, I hope I can get better.

Second, if I don’t get well, I hope that Brother Shu can help me take care of my family.

Third, if I don’t get well, I hope everyone can forget me.

She blew out the candle religiously, and her body was scarred under her long-sleeved shirt. Because he was always injured and always bleeding, his gentle and elegant face showed a kind of painful whiteness. She dared not let anyone see it, because that would make her feel that her embarrassment and secrets were nakedly exposed to the sun. Then he was exposed to the blazing sun.

She also wanted to be a normal person, but she couldn't control herself.

But Wenya couldn't stand it when she was about to cut the cake. She hurriedly found an excuse to go to the bathroom. She had already used her hands before going out in the morning, but she couldn't expect to be able to maintain it for several hours now. There was nothing in the bathroom that could hurt her, so she smashed the doorknob with her arm desperately until the piercing pain made her left arm unable to lift up.

But... not enough! Wen Ya was terribly scared, and the pain was not enough... She poured cold water on her face with her intact hand. The girl's face reflected in the mirror was pale, and she was in a mess in the morning to conceal the makeup she made specially.

So she can't go out now, she can't. Wen Ya thought for a while, and finally staggered out of the bathroom. She wanted to go home, but she didn't dare to go home. She couldn't face the caring eyes of her family, and she didn't want to see any strangers. In the end, she was tortured by the terrifying and dancing scenes in her mind and couldn't bear it anymore, so she slammed her head against the doorpost of the bathroom corridor.

She can't hold on anymore.

Wenya didn't come back for more than half an hour as soon as she left. Shu Rui was already worried, but she fainted on the ground as soon as she turned the corner. She didn't know what was happening and hurried over. I thought she was unwell, but the wound on her forehead told Shu Rui that it was by no means unintentional.

He tried to pick Wen Ya up, but accidentally lifted the long skirt she was wearing.

Scarred under the long skirt.

Shu Rui was terrified. He looked at the wounds all over Wen Ya's body in shock, his lips trembled slightly, and he tried to push the skirt upwards-all the way up, there were countless wounds. Some are good, some are good, and some are bright and bleeding. Then Shu Rui found that Wen Ya's arms were hanging on the ground at a strange angle. He wanted to roll up the sleeves of her shirt and take a look, and found that her arms were also full of wounds.

What's up with her? !

Is it because he didn't let her meet Kunlun, so she chose to self-harm? ! Shu Rui refused to believe this reason, but apart from this, he couldn't find any reason for Wen Ya to harm herself. Because when he proposed this to Wen Ya that day, she wore a nightgown at home, showing her white and soft limbs. At that time, she had no wounds on her body.

How long has it been...she made herself like this, and no one noticed it? !

This birthday finally ended in chaos between the two families.

Shu Rui was sitting outside the ward just like a year ago, silent.

Wen Ya has a weird temper and has no friends, so no one will come to visit her except family members. Shu Rui sits outside the ward alone, besides worrying, it is anger. He has already determined that it is Kunlun’s fault, if not knowing the other party’s fault. Whereabouts, he must give this guy a big beating!

It turned out that Cao Cao was here, and a pair of leather shoes stayed in front of Shu Rui. At first, Shu Rui didn't care about it, but the other party said hi to him.

Hi? Hi your mother's head!

When Shu Rui heard this familiar voice, she hated nothing, stood up and punched it! It staggered Kunlun, who had no mental preparation. Kunlun wiped the corners of his mouth, said a dirty word, and rushed forward: "Don't think I am afraid of you!"

The two of them fought up and down until Mama Shu came out to stop them in the ward: "Don't stop! Yaya is still asleep! Go out and fight!"

She has no affection for her ignorant son, and she has no affection for Yaya's boyfriend Kunlun, wishing they would kill one and lose one.

Shu Rui stared at Kunlun fiercely: "I won't let you go!"

"Fuck! What's up to me? You hit me as soon as I came?" Kunlun felt that he had died unjustly. "I heard Wen Ya was hospitalized, so come and see, what is she now?"

Since Shu Rui is basically a mad dog in his mind, he asked his mother this sentence.

But Shu Rui was so angry at his calm tone, "You **** dare to ask?! Would she self-mutilate and be hospitalized if it wasn't for you?!"

"Self-harm?!" Kunlun's face suddenly became ugly, then he lowered his head for a few seconds, looked up at Shu Rui, and sneered: "Are you sure she did it for me?"

Do you want to admit it? Shu Rui’s fist was itchy again, but then Kunlun’s words stunned him, Mother Shu, and the other family members who had just walked out of the ward: “I’m just a gentle psychiatrist. I can make her self-mutilate for me. You too despise me too much!" He is to treat illnesses and save people, not to harm people!

Shu Rui's expression of astonishment did not make Kunlun look good, and he still sneered: "If Wen Ya repeatedly asked me to keep it secret, do you think I would say? Her current situation is too serious, I think I can't keep it, I don't want to keep it anymore. Anyway, she will toss herself to death sooner or later."

Both Mother Wen and Dad Wen were shocked, and the couple didn't know what happened. Mother Wen grabbed Kunlun's hand and asked eagerly, "What the **** is going on with Yaya?! Why does she need a psychiatrist?!"

Kunlun gave them a heavy look: "So you don't know? What is the memory of her lost two years?"

Grandpa Wen said with a sullen face: "Yaya got a serious illness when she came home, and when she woke up, she forgot the memory of those two years."

So, what kind of memory is that?