Self-cultivation of the Exorcist

"Self-cultivation for an exorcist ()"

Not-self is a philosophical false proposition.

Just like the ship of Theseus mentioned in the conversation between the evil spirit Du Wei and Du Wei.

A wooden boat sails on the sea, constantly replacing parts.

After several years, the entire ship's components have been replaced, from the deck to the mast.

So, take that as a premise.

If a ship is reassembled with the replaced parts, is the ship still the original one?

If yes, what is the current ship?

Thinking from a philosophical point of view, there is no way to give an accurate answer.

Du Wei will not deny the existence of the evil spirit Du Wei.

Because he knew that Du Wei, the evil spirit, was indeed his past self in a sense.

But he will not deny himself.

then.

In this dissecting room.

Du Wei looked at the evil spirit himself, and said slowly: "A person's life is like a rushing river, from birth to death, from beginning to end."

"In this process, emotion, life, decision, price."

"All kinds of things are like waves in the river, appearing constantly, or it may be a stone, a grain of sand, sinking to the bottom of the river."

"I can't deny my past, but I won't deny my present, or even my future."

"I admit that I am becoming not me, so I take it, so I accept it."

"Change is normal, but what doesn't change is the self."

"If one day I become another existence, then that existence must not be me."

The voice fell to the ground.

Du Wei pointed to his head, his eyes were cold and firm, never wavering.

"In order to kill you, I made a lot of plans. Overtly and secretly, we fought countless times."

"So I often think, if I were you, what are my chances of winning?"

"Eventually I came to the conclusion that infinity approaches zero."

"But I don't like that outcome because I have a lover, I have friends, I even have a subordinate who is mentally ill, and I have concerns, even though my dehumanization is getting worse."

"I'm almost unable to experience the so-called love, the so-called friendship..."

"I can only tell myself rationally that I am concerned, and I cannot die in your hands."

hear this.

The evil spirit Du Wei clenched his right hand tightly, and the entire clown card was inserted into the flesh and blood.

behind it.

There are three wounds, two of which are knife wounds, and one is like a bloody hole pulled out by a sharp claw-done by an evil spirit.

The black windbreaker has been infected with blood.

The body controlled by the evil spirit Du Wei is on the verge of dying, and the trauma to his lungs makes him cough up blood non-stop.

Looking at the other self, it insisted on walking over.

"So... your plan is... to die with me?"

The evil spirit Du Wei couldn't understand.

"That's not what you're supposed to do."

"The so-called human nature will only make you weak!"

"Suicide is the greatest cowardice. Have you forgotten everything you did to kill that damn beast?"

The evil spirit Du Wei refers to the revenge of the past.

"You make me so angry! How can you be me!!"

It spit out a mouthful of blood and pointed at its other self, the blood from the corner of its eye streaked across its cheek.

It hates itself.

It sticks to everything it used to be, and sticks to the name Du Wei.

But Du Wei said slowly: "I haven't forgotten, my plan is to let those evil spirits, the bus, the horror house, and even the school all face you, and I will enter here myself. If I can last When you die in the hands of those ghosts, I will leave and take back my body."

"But the plans don't always keep up with the changes."

"I've imagined you as scary enough, but I didn't expect to underestimate you."

"It should be said that it is worthy of another me?"

"So, I have no choice but to change the way and prepare to die with you.

"

"I hate the world, but I can always do something for people that only reason tells me to do."

"Even if I hand over my body to you, your nature will make you choose to kill Alex, Tom and others."

It didn't sound like what Du Wei would say.

The evil spirit made him gradually lose his humanity, and he was originally indifferent, otherwise he wouldn't be here until now, there are only three friends, Tom, Father Tony, and Ryan.

But actually.

Du Wei is a person...

Human beings have weaknesses.

He used to be dismissive, but other than that, he was nothing.

The evil spirit Du Wei is even more pathetic.

As long as it doesn't really regain its body, as long as it is still the evil spirit Du Wei, it can only live in the past forever.

At this time.

Du Wei suddenly took out his mobile phone and looked at the first name in the address book—Alex, and then down, there were Tom, Father Tony, Slivika, Jon, Mrs. Senna, and those who asked him to do something. patients who have undergone psychological counseling.

Even the string of phone numbers that did not exist in reality was noted by him as Ryan.

But that's all there is to it.

Because what's here is his consciousness, and the phone only exists in his dreams...

Du Wei silently stuffed the phone into his pocket and touched his face.

He tried to make some expressions.

Can try, or give up in vain.

"I can't find a way to kill you, so I can only die with you."

"It's time to end..."

Du Wei's voice was still indifferent. He looked at the evil spirit himself and his dying body, and slowly closed his eyes.

call……

The light in the dissecting room disappeared instantly.

Everything is plunged into darkness.

And the demon nun who was stuck outside the door came in.

...

This moment.

Late at night, New York's red light district.

Tom and Father Tony hooked up shoulder to shoulder. The two drank whiskey and stared wretchedly at the graceful girl writhing on the dance floor.

"Hey, this is the life a man should live! It's a pity, Mr. Du Wei doesn't want to come, otherwise, it would be really cool for the three of us to form a team!"

"I can't help it. My good brother is so decent. At first I thought he was just pretending, but I didn't expect him to be real. Fuck! I will bring him in sooner or later, so that he can experience the bliss in the world."

...

the other side.

Furman District.

Alex was wearing a large sweater, browsing the pictures on the web with great interest. Her hair had been dyed back to silver, making her look sharper.

Look carefully, those webpage pictures are interior decoration concept pictures.

She had already bought the villa, and was just waiting for her boyfriend to come back from the church school to design a new home decoration plan for the two of them.

This is the agreement.

...

Switzerland.

Inside the Evening Bell Church.

Ryan was wearing a white coat and a stethoscope he didn't know where to get, listening carefully to James who was lying on the bed and had already lost his breath.

Standing beside them are members of the Twilight Bell Church.

They all bowed their heads in silence over James' body.

But Ryan tilted his head and said, "I think he can still be saved."

...

in a psychiatric clinic.

Antique clocks hung on the wall, and the hands kept turning, getting faster and faster.

In the framed cabinet next to it is Annabelle, who has returned and is banging wildly on the glass cabinet door.

Sudden……

There was a click.

The pointer freezes.

Then, the hour hand, minute hand, and second hand separated from the overlapping state, pointing to 12 o'clock, 3 o'clock, and 9 o'clock respectively.

A strange fluctuation appeared in the living room.

In the blink of an eye, the entire psychological counseling clinic seemed to come alive, possessing a certain will.

Black mist instantly filled every corner, and the framing cabinet was submerged in it.

A pale arm stretched out from the antique clock, and on the back of the hand was a pointer-shaped black pattern that was exactly the same as Du Wei's.

But it seems that certain conditions have not been met, and this arm can only shrink back helplessly.

Then, all the visions disappeared.

The hands of the antique clock turned crazily.

Ka Ka Ka...

The entire antique clock is shaking, along with the walls, the house, the ground...

New York City, which is not in the earthquake zone, has an earthquake...