Shanghai Jiamu

In the summer vacation of the third year of high school, something happened that I don't know if it was a good thing. Xu Jiamu broke up.

He didn't say it himself, but the changed avatar, the deleted Xiuenai circle of friends, and the changed signature are all obvious.

I'm ashamed of the joy I felt when I heard the news. I knew he really liked that girl. He was in a very, very low mood during that time, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't suppress it. Can't hold back that joy.

Just for once, just for once, I'll be a mean person, just let me be happy for a while.

Gradually, I became more and more frequent in contact with him, but it was still different from before. The so-called frequency was just that he would recommend a few books for me occasionally, and he would enlighten me when I was under too much pressure to prepare for the college entrance examination.

How did you say that sentence? - "The friendship between gentlemen is as light as water". Xu Jiamu and I are probably in this state now.

Right above the blackboard is written "__ days left before the college entrance examination" in eye-catching fonts, and the number changes from 100 to 10 and then to 0.

When I walked into the examination room, my mind was slowly filled with "trigonometric functions", "magnetic field" and "acid-base salt", but when I walked out of the examination room, there was only one sentence in my mind.

"I'll be waiting for you in Shanghai."

I looked at the blue sky and long white clouds above my head, and looked at the review materials thrown into the air around me, and suddenly felt very happy.

It's the joy that the lips can't cover the teeth.

Alas, but Xu Jiamu always seems to be going against my good mood.

Waiting for the day when the results were released, Xu Jiamu told me that he got back together.

He excitedly talked about how long he had planned to get back together with that girl, how nervous he was before asking her out, how happy he was after he succeeded, why they separated, why they got back together, and how he would never be separated from her again, He also said he was very happy.

But I am so sad.

I know that secret love is an extremely sad one-man show. There is almost nothing in this world that I can't do through day and night hard work and unwavering determination, but feelings can't. Day and night, I want to grow up and keep up with his footsteps, and I have always liked him unswervingly for five years, but I still can't get half of his response, I can't even say a word of sadness to him, I have to Say "ah, so sweet, it must last for a long time!"

I suddenly feel very tired. It's like running a race with no end in sight. I always feel that if I persevere and work harder, I will see the end, but when I look back, I realize that I just lied to myself.

It's time to let go, Zhou Jingwei. I said this to myself, but before that I want to do one more thing.

I have probably spent all my courage in this matter all my life.

I told my parents that I was going on a graduation trip, and I booked a ticket to Shanghai alone.

I don't intend to do anything, and it's useless not to say that I did, and besides, I'm a moral person. I just want to go around the city that I regard as my goal, and I want to take a last look at the boy I have cherished for a long time, and I want to give my five years an ending.

After all, there will be no such opportunity in the future.

It was already afternoon when I got off the plane, and I didn't have time to eat, or even find a hotel to put my luggage down. Alone in a strange big city, everything around me made me feel panic. With the guidance of navigation and kind people, I found Xu Jiamu's school smoothly. I didn't even plan to look for him. I saw my friend I know that he is going out on a date with his girlfriend today, I just want to take a look at him from a distance, and I will give up after just one look.

I sat in front of the large French windows in a fast food restaurant opposite, from noon to dusk, and from dusk to night. I was not worried about missing Xu Jiamu, because his figure was clearly imprinted in my mind, but I Still looking out the window seriously.

Sure enough, the plaque on their school was missing a point, and it seemed inexplicably sad; I didn’t find the Oden that he said was delicious, I don’t know if I didn’t find it or it didn’t open today; Curious about what Auntie Suguan's afro looks like. I even thought boredly, I don't know if I have broken the Guinness record for the project of not blinking for the longest time.

Fortunately, I waited. My eyesight is not very good, but I saw Xu Jiamu at a glance. He was wearing a short-sleeved white T, and he was carrying a lady's bag that didn't fit. I couldn't see the face of the sister next to me, but she was wearing white The improved cheongsam dress just hits Xu Jiamu's shoulders. She is not tall, but she is very thin. It has a gentle Jiangnan feel. It is the type of girl I like very much. That was the fairy-like girl in Xu Jiamu's eyes.

I don't know what Xu Jiamu said, that sister lightly tapped his shoulder, but Xu Jiamu grabbed her hand instead. I saw Xu Jiamu seriously looking at the girl in front of him, he circled his thumb and index finger into a ring, then slowly and carefully put it on the ring finger of the girl's right hand, and then took her hand . The elder sister threw herself into Xu Jiamu's arms, Xu Jiamu put one hand around the girl's shoulder, and with the other hand, he stroked the girl's head lovingly. Not knowing what he said, the two looked at each other again and smiled happily.

In fact, I can probably guess that he would probably say, "Look, I've got you locked up this time, so don't ever separate again."

So far, my five years have come to an end.

I don’t remember the story clearly. I was the one who failed to complete the Shanghai appointment. I chose a medical school in Beijing. After knowing my choice, Xu Jiamu expressed his blessing and said that he would have the opportunity to come to Shanghai to meet his daughter in the future. A friend invited me to dinner together, and Xu Jiamu and I never got in touch after that.

After letting go of this unforgettable secret love, I also had a very good relationship. Even if it didn't go to the end, I gradually healed my past in love. I am really a lucky person, and my life is quite smooth.

After graduating, I went to a hospital in Hangzhou. It was a wish of mine. I rented a house with my colleagues and had a stable income. There was nothing wrong with it except being busy.

Xu Jiamu, I am doing well, and I hope you are too.