The Paranoid Brother Relies On My Love to Live

     Farewell to Mo Chu, Qiao Zhenzhen ran towards Chi Shen: "Why are you here?"

    "My psychiatrist sent me a message saying that there is a lecture here and I can make an appointment for a follow-up." Chi Shen replied.

    Qiao Zhenzhen: "I'm here for a follow-up, I thought..."

     Halfway through, she suddenly stopped talking.

    Chi Shen's expression was calm: "Why?"

    I thought you were following me. But this kind of words must not be said, Qiao Zhenzhen stared at him for a long time, her mind was full of the doctor's words, and for a long time she forced a smile: "It's nothing, are you going to see the doctor now?"

    "I seem to be late, ask in the afternoon, have you eaten yet?" Chi Shen's tone was no different from usual.

    Qiao Zhenzhen shook her head: "Not yet, go home and eat, I'll call my mother."

    "Hmm."

    After Chi Shen agreed, he opened the car door directly, Qiao Zhenzhen went to the co-pilot and sat down, waited for him to drive before asking, "Where did you get the car?"

     "It's prepared by someone before you come, so it's convenient to drive by yourself." Chi Shen replied.

    Qiao Zhenzhen nodded and didn't ask any more.

    It is still a working day, there are very few vehicles on the road, and the cars are unobstructed all the way.

    After a while, Chi Shen asked lightly, "Didn't you come back to accompany your grandpa? Why did you appear there."

    "Ah...let's meet a friend." Qiao Zhenzhen did not dare to say that she came to see a psychiatrist.

    Chi Shen's eyes were dark: "Yeah."

    Then no more talking.

    For the next two days, Qiao Zhenzhen and Chi Shen stayed at home to accompany their elders, but Qiao Zhenzhen was always absent-minded and took a look at her phone from time to time, as if she was chatting with someone.

    Faced with her abnormality, Chi Shen was always calm and showed unprecedented patience. He disguised so well that he even deceived himself. After staying at Qin's house for the past few days, his mood has been very calm.

    However, Qiao Zhenzhen always felt that something was wrong with him, but she couldn't think of what was wrong. After thinking about it for a long time, she finally decided to have a good chat with him.

    Yes, she felt she couldn't continue to act confused.

    But home is obviously not a good place to talk about this matter, she thought about it carefully, and decided to go back to S City in advance.

    "Didn't you say you will stay for three days? Why did you leave so early?" Qin Jing couldn't help complaining.

    Qiao Zhenzhen smiled: "If you miss me, I will come back again next month."

    "Who misses you," Qin Jing gave her a sideways look, "but it's time to come back. Grandpa has been thinking about you all the time."

    "Well, I know mom." After Qiao Zhenzhen finished speaking, she reached out and hugged her.

    Qin Jing sighed and turned to look at Chi Shen: "Don't be too used to her, you know? If she bullies you, call Auntie."

    "Mom!" Qiao Zhenzhen was dissatisfied, "How bad am I in your eyes, why are you always worried that I will bully him."

    "Have you done less bullying?" Qin Jing sneered.

    Qiao Zhenzhen pouted, unable to say anything to refute.

    Chi Shen was docile and calm, and held Qin Jing's hand in front of her: "Don't worry, Auntie, Zhen Zhen didn't bully me."

    "You just protect her." Qin Jing glanced at him helplessly, and after hearing the announcement to remind them to board, she urged them to leave quickly.

    The two said goodbye to Qin Jing and boarded the plane together.

    Although the ticket was booked earlier, it was delayed for a while after arriving in S City, and it was already past 1 o'clock in the afternoon when the two arrived home. Qiao Zhen Zhen relaxed on the sofa, not wanting to lift her fingers.

    Chi Shen sat down beside her and held her hand again: "Tired?"

    "...Well," Qiao Zhenzhen closed her eyes, "I didn't do anything, but I was so tired."

    Chi Shen looked at her face calmly, and then slowly said, "What do you want to eat, I'll cook for you."

    Qiao Zhenzhen snorted softly: "If you don't eat, you should rest."

    "I'm not tired." Chi Shen replied.

    Qiao Zhenzhen laughed: "If you are not tired, take a rest, just wait and order takeaway."

    Chi Shen heard the words and replied softly, still holding her hand.

    The air was quiet again, Qiao Zhenzhen couldn't help but reopen her eyes and looked at Chi Shen's quiet profile. Since seeing the psychiatrist, the doctor's words have been planted in her mind like a spell, and whenever she looks at Chi Shen like this, the doctor's voice will be played in a loop in her mind.

    She moved her lips, finally plucking up the courage to talk to him.

    "Pool Deep..."

    As soon as his name was called, the phone vibrated suddenly, and the two of them looked at them at the same time, and it was a string of unfamiliar numbers.

    Qiao Zhenzhen recognized the psychiatrist's mobile phone number at a glance, so she quickly picked up her phone: "Let's have a look at some takeout, I'll answer the phone first."

    After that, I went straight back to the study.

    Chi Shen looked at the back of her leaving in a hurry, his eyes gradually darkened.

    In the study, after Qiao Zhenzhen closed the door, she went straight into the bathroom, and then answered the phone: "Hello, doctor."

    "Hello Miss Qiao, it's like this, when I checked the case just now, I suddenly found a precedent with similar performance to the patient you described. After thinking about it, I still think I should contact you. Come on." The middle-aged voice came from the phone.

    Qiao Zhenzhen hurriedly responded: "You said."

    "It's like this, because I haven't seen the person, so everything is just speculation, not a diagnosis, if Miss Qiao wants to get a specific diagnosis, she still needs to bring the patient, so you temporarily When I'm not a doctor, I'm just a good friend."

    "I understand, just tell the doctor." Qiao Zhenzhen pursed her lips.

      When this kind of case develops to the most serious point, it will give birth to self-destructive emotions, and finally can not control the idea of ​​suicide..."

    The more she listened, the more nervous she became, and when she was so tense that she was about to break, there was a slight noise outside the door, and then the bathroom door was pushed open, she raised her head subconsciously, caught off guard Chi Shen dark eyes.

    She was shocked, the phone fell directly to the ground, and the phone that was playing on the receiver instantly fell to the public place, and the voice of the psychiatrist sounded throughout the bathroom—

     "But no matter how serious the self-destructive mood is, it will not hurt the dependent person, but you say that the patient still loses his mind and drives the car when the other party is sitting in the co-pilot, indicating that his The condition is not as simple as a dependence disorder... I now suspect that he not only has self-destructive emotions, but also has a desire to hurt the dependent. In short, this patient is very dangerous, and I think you should bring him to see me as soon as possible. "

    Qiao Zhenzhen opened her mouth, but no sound came out.

    Chi Shen looked at her expressionlessly, as if he hadn't heard the person talking on the phone was him.

    The air was almost sticky.

    For a long time, the doctor heard something was wrong and asked tentatively, "Miss Qiao?"

    No answer.

    "Miss Qiao? Are you all right?" The doctor's voice was a little anxious.

    Qiao Zhenzhen returned to her senses, hurriedly picked up her mobile phone, and responded dryly: "I, I'm fine...I know what you said, I'll do it as soon as possible...I'll find you if I need it. ."

    "Okay, then first." The doctor agreed genially, then hung up the phone.

    The bathroom fell silent again.

    For a long time, Qiao Zhenzhen said dryly: "Why did you come in?"

    Chi Shen stared at her for a long time: "I thought you were calling Mo Chu."

    Qiao Zhenzhen was stunned for a moment: "Why did I fight him..." Halfway through the sentence, she suddenly reacted and asked cautiously, "Do you think I have something to do with him?"

    Chi Shen was silent.

    Qiao Zhenzhen helpless: "I'm just friends with him, he's married a long time ago, the object is my roommate in college, and he has children, I'll take you to meet them next time."

    Chi Shen remained silent.

    After Qiao Zhenzhen explained, she was embarrassed again, and it took a long time to smile reluctantly, trying to explain to him: "The phone call just now was not what you thought..."

    "When did you find it?" Chi Shen interrupted her.

    Qiao Zhenzhen pursed her lips: "The day you rescued me from Li Chang."

    Sure enough. Chi Shen lowered his eyes.

    Qiao Zhenzhen looked at his quiet appearance, and approached him cautiously: "Deep, I don't mean anything else, I'm just worried about you..."

    "Now that you know, what are you going to do?" Chi Shen interrupted her again, "Do you want to tell grandpa and grandpa, and send me abroad like when I was eighteen? What are you going to do after that, lie to me that you will wait for me, and then turn around and date people?"

    His tone was calm, but Qiao Zhenzhen could still hear a strong hatred, as if she had been beaten in an instant, the pain spread from her heart to her whole body in a second.

    She was silent for a moment, and then her voice was a little dull: "I don't associate with people."

    Chi Shen looked at her, his eyes were full of ridicule, it was the first time that Qiao Zhenzhen saw such an aggressive expression on his face.

    "I'm not Chi Shen, you can't lie to me," Chi Shen looked at her seriously, "I won't leave, I won't leave you, and I won't let you leave, no matter what. Whoever you like, you have to stay with me, whether alive or dead."

    It is a threat, but there is a hint of despair.

    Qiao Zhenzhen's eyes were flushed, she bit her lip and hugged him. Chi Shen's dark eyes flashed for a moment, then he pursed his thin lips, and after a long time he said coldly: "I want to kill you, are you not afraid of me?"

    "Then will you kill me?" Qiao Zhenzhen buried her face in his chest, her voice sounded muffled.

    Chi Shen did not answer, because even he was not sure.

    "At least I wanted to die with you when I lost control on the road that day." He finally told the truth.

    "Why?" Qiao Zhenzhen looked up at him, after a quiet moment, she suddenly remembered something, "...you saw me chatting with Mo Chu?"

    Chi Shen looked at her blankly.

    "...I really have nothing to do with him, why do you care about him so much?" Qiao Zhenzhen had a headache.

    "I said, you can't lie to me, I know you better than you think." Chi Shen stared into her eyes.

    Qiao Zhenzhen was stunned: "When you were abroad...investigate me?"

    Chi Shen was silent, trying to find a bit of disgust in her eyes, but apart from being stunned, he was not bored with himself at all, and he couldn't help being a little disappointed.

    Yes, disappointed.

    The secret he hid so hard has been discovered by her. I believe that more people will discover it soon. At that time, he will once again become a patient in everyone's eyes, and once again he will be forced to leave his homeland, leave the person he likes, and go to an unfamiliar place for treatment until he comes back 'healed'.

    He is tired of this kind of life, and he doesn't want to repeat the previous life, he just wants to end it as soon as possible.

    And the way to end all this is for Qiao Zhenzhen to be a little more ruthless to him, so that he might not be soft-hearted and let her be her forever.

    Qiao Zhenzhen clearly saw the despair and violence in his eyes, and also knew that he was very dangerous in this state, but the amazing thing was that she was not afraid at all, but after he revealed his original face, I have some bottom in my heart.

    It's like when a big knife hangs over her head, she will be tortured by fear day and night, but when the big knife falls, she will feel nothing more than that.

    She was silent for a moment, then slowly said: "I don't know how you investigated, but Mo Chu and I are really nothing, he chased me when he first went to college, but I refused , and then it was a relationship of good friends. He helped me a lot when I started my business, and as a thank you for giving him some shares in the studio, now he is my roommate's boyfriend, and we have these relationships."

    Speaking, she looked at him firmly, "I have always been your boyfriend, and I have been waiting for you to come back."

    Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly, seeming to be shaken.

    Qiao Zhenzhen let go of him and took a step back, looking at his indifferent expression, she suddenly couldn't help but slapped him, and complained with red eyes and choked: "You bastard, you said that you will be able to do it soon. After it was cured, it has been more than six years since I passed, do you know that I've been waiting for you to go crazy?"

    "I still dare not let my grandfather know about it, for fear that they will be careful and dare not let you know, for fear that you won't like me after you get better, my waiting will make you feel burdened, how about you? You don't give me good treatment, but instead you think about making yourself sicker all day long, what's the point of us being separated for so many years?!"

    "It's okay if you pretend to be healed, and pretend you don't like me, do you know how uncomfortable I feel when you say we're starting over, a new shit! I'm not with you It's over!"

    Chi Shen's heart hurts like a needle stick, there is a hint of confusion on his face, his hands hanging on both sides of his body are raised, lowered and raised, but he has no courage to take a step forward. He seemed to have become the eighteen-year-old self again, and even if she frowned, he would make him be careful, let alone see her cry.

    From the moment she knew she was going to see Mo Chu in City A, countless dark thoughts appeared in his mind. When Zhen Zhen had the opportunity to contact outsiders again, he also thought of using the most extreme way to keep her by his side forever, but his reason was always restrained.

    Just now, he thought that the moment she hid to answer Mo Chu's call, the only remaining restraint almost disappeared.

    However, the next moment, she cried and complained.

    Now, Chi Shen stared at the little girl crying in front of him, hesitated for a long time and said, "I'm just afraid that you will send me away again."

    "It's not that I don't like you, I just want to approach you like a normal person."

    "As long as you don't expose me, don't...leave me, I can pretend for a lifetime."

    Although his voice has improved a lot, it is still hoarse, and he speaks every word seriously, for fear that she will not understand.

    Qiao Zhenzhen sat on the ground and didn't want to look at him. She lowered her head and cried for a long time before she calmed down. Chi Shen stood quietly in front of her, until she suddenly raised her head, he subconsciously took a step back.

    Qiao Zhenzhen couldn't hold back her joy: "...Can I eat you?"

    Chi Shen stared at her face, unable to tell whether she was angry or not.

    Qiao Zhenzhen gave him a hateful look, and got up from the ground: "Aren't you very powerful? Aren't you going to kill me? Why are you afraid of this when I raise my head?"

    "...I really thought about it." Even if all the secrets were gone, Chi Shen was still a little embarrassed when he said this.

    Qiao Zhenzhen took a breath: "Then will you really do this?"

    Chi Shen was silent for a long time, and finally shook his head.

    He won't, because she is afraid of pain, and hates indecent, and no matter what way of leaving the world, no matter how perfect it is, it must be painful and indecent in the end.

    Qiao Zhenzhen glanced at him and was satisfied: "I know you won't hurt me."

    Chi Shen pursed his lips and said nothing.

    The two were quiet for a long time, Qiao Zhenzhen sighed wearily: "I shouldn't have handed you over."

    Chi Shen's eyes moved slightly.

    "I should take you by my side to take care of it." Qiao Zhenzhen reached out and hugged him.

    Chi Shen stood stiffly for a long time, but in the end she reached out and hugged her too.

    The body temperature of two people plus one is always greater than two, and now the weather is getting hotter, the bathroom is very stuffy, and I sweat a little while hugging.

    For a long time, Qiao Zhenzhen asked in a low voice, "So you really haven't liked anyone, right?" Until today, she had to admit that she was a layman, and it was impossible to not mind his past at all .

    Chi was silent for a moment: "No."

    "Neither do I," Qiao Zhenzhen reciprocated, after hesitating, "Do you believe it?"

    "Letter." Chi Shen answered without hesitation.

    Qiao Zhenzhen raised her head: "Really? Why do I think you don't believe me very much?"

    "I believe." Chi Shen looked into her eyes and repeated.

    Qiao Zhenzhen sneered: "Isn't it because she said she believed it, and then turned her head to blacken it for me?"

    Chi Shen: "I don't understand."

    "I read so many novels and don't know the word blackening?" Qiao Zhenzhen raised her eyebrows.

    Chi Shen really didn't understand, but it didn't prevent him from being guilty. After being quiet, he took the initiative to hug her.

    At this moment, all the defenses were removed, and he became relieved in an instant.

    Qiao Zhenzhen was strangled by him so she couldn't breathe, but she was too lazy to let him go, so she stayed in his arms quietly.

    Chi Shen hugged for a moment, then slowly said: "I don't know how to make you believe me."

    "What a coincidence, so do I," Qiao Zhenzhen paused after she said, "There seems to be a way."

    "What?" Chi Shen took the initiative to let her go.

    Qiao Zhenzhen's eyes circled around him, and she coughed before saying, "Try it to see if it's the original, unopened, or you'll know."

    Chi Shen was stunned for a moment, and suddenly blushed when she understood what she meant.