The Tyrant Wants To Live Honestly

Fortunately, they knew how to keep their promise.

I could fill my meal with bread topped with stinky milk and camel cheese.

They were never friendly, but they never used excessive threats or violence against me in case the scorpion reappeared afterward.

‘I wish there was just one more scorpion.’

The next day, Tutu, who had gone out to find food, came in.

“Danny!”

“why.”

“I went out to the village and heard that the princess disappeared from the Empire!”

“What?”

“she must have been kidnapped!”

Danny’s eyes turned directly to me.

His eyes weren’t a very good sign of my fate.

I was worried about this, so I never said anything about my origin until now, but this happened.

Who the hell is it? The person who spread the news that the princess was abducted.

It is a matter that should have been kept secret even for the sake of the imperial family.

“Damn it, things got bigger!”

Danny banged his fist against the wall.

“Tutu, follow me.”

Danny left me alone in the basement and took the tutu out.

My head got complicated as well.

Danny probably didn’t mean to touch the imperial family in the first place.

He was just going to have a proper aristocratic family.

However, if the target is the imperial family, they will face the death penalty for treason and all kinds of felony crimes.

So their only option is to make this happen and live in hiding or get out of the empire.

There is no option for me to return to the imperial palace.

‘It’s crazy to wait for Carnan.’

I searched the room while the two of them left.

I found a piece of leftover bread, a water bottle half full of water, and a dagger that Tutu had left behind.

I grabbed the dagger and swung it around in my hand.

The movement of my hands felt stiff, but it must have been better than an ordinary person. Even after taking a long break from training, I was the one who held the sword before returning.

‘If only I had a map…’

I desperately needed a map, not knowing the direction to get to the village, but there is no way the kidnappers would carry such a great object as a map.

I hid the dagger and bread under the cloak and put my ear close to the door.

“Kill that bitch and go straight to Hark…”

“But she’s a kid! No need to kill…”

“she is a princess! If that bitch is alive and exposes our faces, we will die.”

“Still…”

“Do you think the emperor will keep the princess kidnapper alive? You go and get two camels. In the meantime, I’ll be dealing with her.”

My fate had already been decided.

In the end, I had no choice but to pick up my sword.

There aren’t many opportunities. 

There is only one way for me to defeat Danny, who is physically disadvantaged.

The sound of the tutu moving away was heard and the door opened immediately.

“Where is this girl…!”

Hiding behind the door, I cut his leg as he entered the room with a knife.

It was my only chance to surprise him, who was mean but defenseless.

“Ugh! You little girl!”

Danny moaned and turned right behind me.

‘shit.’

Due to the weak strength and the blunt blade of the knife, the knife could not go in as deeply as expected, and I failed to cut his ligaments.

Danny quickly pulled out a knife and grabbed my neck.

“Ugh!”

The body, unable to overcome the power, was pushed out and crashed into the wall.

I reached out and tried to draw his arm, but my body was small and my arms were short.

My knife slipped through his forearm, leaving only small wounds, no fatal wounds.

It’s because I’m weak because I’m not strong.

I was ignoring it because I was afraid that I would become greedy again when I became strong, but for this moment, I resented my weak body.

Danny twisted my wrist to drop the knife and strangled me.

I felt like my neck was going to break, and I was suffocating.

“No matter how hard you try, there is nothing you can do!”

Danny smiled, revealing this at my attack.

At that moment, I don’t know why those words came to me and stabbed me so cruelly.

No matter how hard I try, I can’t defeat Raymond, I can’t go to Episteme, I can’t get Carnan’s attention, I can’t get Theon’s love, and even the people I trusted will abandon me and put me on the deathbed.

Even if I try, I can’t do anything.

Because of that, my limits were cut off.

When I hit his chin with a force I don’t know where it came from, Danny bent over and let me go, and I picked up the knife that had fallen and cut his leg deep once more.

Red blood spurted out, and Danny’s body leaned to one side and collapsed.

“Damn it!”

I even cut off the other leg of Danny’s swearing words.

Danny, lying on the floor, screamed and struggled, and I cut his clothes and tied them to the floor.

Danny looked at me with fear and trembled.

Those eyes I saw a lot before returning. The eyes of people looking at me with a sword.

It was then that I regained the reason I had lost for a while.

Reflecting on the blade, I had the face of a bad person.

No, I didn’t mean to be bad. I just wanted to live…

I shook my head and stepped back.

“ I really want to live a good life. But why doesn’t everyone leave me alone?”

I wish I could just live quietly and die

As I stepped backward, I left the scene, leaving Danny bleeding.

As I ran away from the dark underground, what greeted me was a desolate wilderness.

I ran away, but I had no destination. No one told me where to go to get to the village, how to meet people, or who could save me.

It would have been nice to be able to follow in the footsteps of the stupid Tutu, but the sand wind whirling in the wilderness had long since erased the traces.

I saw the sky and the shadows.

The sun that the first Milanaire had made was shining on me.

‘Let’s go towards the rising sun.’

The desert is in the west, so it was a simple and clear thought that if you walked east, something would come out.

So I started walking blindly to the east.

There were dry trees and cactuses that could be sparsely marked milestones, the ruins of a house buried in the sand, and a dried-up well.

When I found traces of the village, I had hope.

I hope I can survive. Soon there will be a village where people live.

Dry dust rushed into my lungs.

I was sweating and thirsty, and I had half a bucket of water.

I walked diligently, moistening my throat just enough to wet my cracked mouth, but I couldn’t find a single shadow of a person until the sun went down.

When the sun went down, the wilderness showed a different violent appearance than before.

The heat was gone and the cold came. The hot wind lost its warmth and became cold.

It was Fried time.

Milanaire’s time and Fried’s time were just harsh to me.

The sand where my feet had been buried became shallow, but the ground was still dry. All I can know is looking at the stars and finding directions.

But even that was obscured by the clouds along with the increasingly chilly wind.

Astronomy that I knew was not helpful, and I had to move forward only with the direction I had previously taken as a guide.

There was no light in the wasteland.

If I could handle the spirit of light, would I have been able to illuminate the dark path ahead?

Would it be different if it was Ray?

As time passed and I got more and more exhausted, the fear I had forgotten when killing Danny began to creep closer.

‘Is Danny dead? Or is Tutu coming back and chasing after me knowing that I have run away?’

Killing people wasn’t scary. Because I’ve already killed a lot.

Still, strangely, my body trembled.

What scared me was my helplessness.

A feeling of helplessness that has no choice but to walk in the endless darkness without knowing where the destination is.

I wanted to pray to a spirit or a god, but I stopped.

Spirits will never come to me, and God will no longer be merciful to me. 

I was not worthy of God’s love.

Finally, my legs relaxed and I fell forward. The ice-cold sand took me in.

There was a rough noise with every breath I took, and the cough didn’t stop because of the sand dust. My body, which had been shaking since before, could no longer control it.

great. It’s okay to die like this.

It’s much better than being executed in a tyrant’s crown or killed by a stupid kidnapper.

It wasn’t the life I wanted to live for a long time, and I didn’t want to leave a name for it.

No one will remember and mourn my death for a long time.

‘The life I came to pay for my sins, it would be nice if it ended sooner.’

I crouched against the rock and thought.

I waited for this punishment to end, thinking about why I was brought back to life, thinking of the many punishments I should have received.

Then a faint light appeared in the distance. It sounded like the sound of horseshoes.

The flickering light at the edge of the horizon was getting closer.

It was a person

Why does God always torture me with hope?

Why can’t I give up my greed even after being like that?

This situation was wild and resentful, but because I was greedy by nature, I saw hope again, and I longed for my life.

I got up on the rock and raised my trembling hands, hoping the lights would find me.

“Here…”

My voice was dry and cracked, and I couldn’t make a sound.

I tried to call them with all my strength, but my voice was only scattered in the deep darkness.

I took a step heavier than ever.

to get a little closer to them.

Not knowing whether those wandering the wasteland during this night were bandits, good men, or slave traders, I hoped for a glimmer of hope.

‘It might be the one that Carnan sent.’

Someone might have sent them to find me.

Although it was funny that I thought like this even though I was neglected so much, I was originally that kind of person. I wanted to believe that someone would love me.

But I couldn’t take a few steps and fell again.

The night sky, which even covered the moon, was really dark. It looked like it was going to rain soon. What a coincidence in this barren land.

I became more and more dazed, and I no longer had the strength to call on those lights.

“Princess!”

As I was losing my mind, it seemed that I heard a certain sound.

* * *

When I woke up I was in the Imperial Palace.

There was a wet towel on my head and my body was still grimy and cold. The curtained room was dark, but only a small light leaked through the cracks in the door.

“They were unnamed kidnappers.”

“she has only been kidnapped by people like that?”

Carnan’s voice was heard from the doorway.

It was the first time he had come to my room, so I was shocked as if my heart would stop.

Carnan did come to find me. I’m kidnapped, he is trying to save me. It felt like it was burning in my chest.

Somehow he was my father who gave me blood…

“Everything annoying me.”

At that word that leaked through the crack in the door, my heart, which had been heated, became cold again.

‘Annoying?’

Everything I’ve been through has been dismissed as ‘annoying’ for Carnan.

“Find out who leaked this and deal with it. And outside, announce that the kidnapping of the princess is false rumor, and anyone who repeats such rumors should be severely punished.

I heard Carnan sighing with annoyance. The sigh became a dagger and stuck in my heart.

Seriously, what else did I stupidly expect? I must have lost my mind for a while because I was sick.

I clenched my teeth.

Maybe it was because my body was weak, so my mind was weak.

‘Carnan was originally like this.’

Carnan hated me from the beginning. It was always my fault if I fought with Rey before returning, and it was also my fault that Rey did something wrong.

When Ray turned ten, He bought a steed for Ray, but when I turned ten, he didn’t take care of anything.

The birthday bouquet that my nanny gave me, it turned out that it wasn’t Carnan, but the people of the Imperial Palace. Knowing it, I was so angry that I destroyed all the things in Ray’s room, and Carnan punished me for being locked in the room for a month.

After that, Carnan treated me as the embodiment of greed.

Yes, I was definitely a greedy person. Because I wanted to have everything.

Like Tantalus, tormented by eternal thirst and hunger, I longed for all that Rey had, everything that I didn’t have, and everything that could make up for my lack.

I know it was stupid.

So I rationalized that I would be hated by Carnan because I was greedy. That’s exactly what I wanted to believe.

But after the regression, too much has been proven.

I don’t fight Rey anymore or take anything from him, but Carnan still doesn’t like me.

‘I will be punished for being a tyrant.’

Yes, I am paying the price of the crimes I committed in my previous life here again.

I decided to rationalize it like that again.

Otherwise, I think I’m going to cry out loud.