What to Do if I Am Noticed by the Straight Guy Next Door?

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Su Bin’s remark of “被操” (bei cao) is actually closer in meaning to “被操练” (bei caolian), which roughly translates to being “trained” or “worked hard.” In conversations between straight guys, the communication is often straightforward and rough, and they frequently use such language, thinking it’s harmless.

However, Su Bin forgot that he was now dealing with a shameless uke (bottom) who is prone to wild associations in “certain aspects.” So when he realized what he said, Sun Yu Jie already had a flushed face!

Su Bin was particularly speechless. In the past, he would have just given Sun Yu Jie a glare and that would be the end of it. But now, after experiencing various events that shattered his worldview, such as being held in the arms of a man and crying like a dog, and being considered a submissive by a fujoshi, Su Bin felt that he needed to explain.

If necessary, he could even give Sun Yu Jie a slap on the head, just like Jin Fei did to him, and knock out all those random thoughts. But after explaining, Sun Yu Jie said something that made Su Bin even more devastated: “Bing-ge, I know that what you said doesn’t have that meaning, but I couldn’t help but imagine what it would be like for you to be ‘操’ (cao)… I’m sorry…” Ugh~ It seems kind of, kind of impactful (covers face)!

Su Bin: (O益O) Can we still be friends?!

Although he was repulsed, Su Bin couldn’t prevent others from having wild thoughts, so he could only repeatedly beat his chest in frustration.

“Hey, I have a question…” Su Bin suddenly spoke up. “Do you think it’s common for one guy to comfort another guy by hugging?”

Su Bin, having been a straight guy for twenty years, being bitten on the neck and pinned against the wall by another guy was a first for him, as was being scolded while being pressed on the couch and suddenly being embraced by another guy… and that guy happened to be Ellen!

Allen’s behavior left Su Bin puzzled on multiple occasions, especially when he reflected on it afterward, it always seemed to have a strange ambiguous undertone.

Before Su Bin moved in, Allen had explicitly stated that he didn’t want a roommate who was gay, and Yang Chengzhe also told Su Bin that Allen disliked gay people. That’s why Su Bin didn’t think in that direction; otherwise, he would have thought that Allen had feelings for him.

Upon hearing this, Sun Yu Jie scratched his head and said, “You have to understand, I’m gay. In the eyes of a gay person, if a guy hugs me to comfort me, I would definitely think… he wants me.”

Wants, wants… wants what the hell! (╯‵□′)╯︵┻━┻

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Sun Yu Jie looked at Su Bin with some trepidation. “If you’re talking about straight guys, my answer won’t be helpful. You should ask straight guys… But by the way, you’re a straight guy yourself. Don’t you feel strange?”

“…” Su Bin was speechless. Yes, when Sun Yu Jie tearfully confessed his sexual orientation to him, Su Bin had just stared at him with a face of “What the hell?” He didn’t know what to do.

Su Bin asked Sun Yu Jie this question not only to understand Allen’s behavior but also to clarify his own thoughts. Because being emotionally influenced by Ellen, he found that he didn’t dislike this kind of ambiguity but rather… enjoyed it a bit?

After all, Allen was such an impressive person. From his perfectly flawless appearance to his background, which could be connected to the B country royal family, and his financial ability to afford a Bentley and hire a driver, not to mention his “mysterious stamina” in certain male aspects… every aspect of this person was enough to overwhelm a commoner like Su Bin.

If such an extraordinary person treated someone differently, that person would undoubtedly feel a sense of happiness akin to being cherished. Su Bin felt that way now.

However, it couldn’t be denied that Allen’s hot-and-cold behavior also made it confusing.

For example, yesterday afternoon, Allen ignored Su Bin throughout the afternoon at the restaurant but suddenly smiled and flicked his forehead before leaving, which made the initially aggrieved Su Bin suddenly feel a sense of healing—thinking that the other person was angry, but it seemed like he wasn’t angry at all.

Or, for example, the events of the night before last. Allen made all those unreasonable claims about having the right to control him, but then suddenly said, “I’m really worried about you”… Uh, the tone of that statement still made Su Bin want to kneel on the ground and cover his face! However, despite the ambiguity of that night, the next morning, Allen suddenly turned icy again.

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And last night when Robert told Su Bin that Allen had sent him to pick him up, Su Bin felt an overflowing sense of happiness! At that moment, he even silently vowed that if Allen needed his help with anything, he would definitely go through fire and water without hesitation!

However, Su Bin’s happiness didn’t last long, as Allen’s serious expression when he asked him to abide by the curfew pulled him out of his irrational state.

When Su Bin wanted to delve into that special treatment, it disappeared, every time.

Honestly, Su Bin never expected that Allen would be like this. His actions and behavior always contradicted Su Bin’s preconceived notions of him.

This left Su Bin feeling confused, and more than once, he wondered if Allen’s special treatment of him was just his wishful thinking.

…

“Why do you ask this?” Sun Yu Jie was confused. Did Su Bin receive comfort from another man? Or did he comfort another man? Who, who, who?

Su Bin touched his nose and lied, “It’s nothing, just a friend’s matter. I asked casually.” Well, let’s continue observing for now.

Sun Yu Jie: “…”

Due to his experience working as an illegal laborer, Su Bin now approached his studies with great seriousness.

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When he was washing those never-ending dishes, doing those lowly jobs, and even when he was being scolded, Su Bin realized how fortunate it was to be a simple student sitting in the classroom, enjoying the bath of knowledge!

With this new realization, Su Bin dismissed the idea of slacking off and decided to study seriously. He not only paid full attention in class and took detailed notes but also recorded the lectures for future review. He even obtained the book list recommended by the professors and planned to borrow them one by one from the library—only in this way could he justify the money his dad spent.

Moreover, since he realized that he might be a “white-eyed wolf” after working those illegal jobs, Su Bin also thought about calling his dad. Unfortunately, due to the long-standing conflicts between father and son, their communication and conversation lacked normality, and Su Bin had no idea what to say during a phone call, feeling awkward no matter what he said… so he kept postponing it.

After several days without contacting his girlfriend, Su Bin called Chen Xiaotian but there was no answer. This had happened before, and usually, Su Bin would wait and call again when she was free, and Chen Xiaotian would explain why she couldn’t answer the phone.

So Su Bin didn’t think much of it and focused on his studies until lunch break, when he tried calling again… but still, Chen Xiaotian didn’t pick up.

Now, Su Bin started to feel uneasy. In the morning, he didn’t call because it was afternoon in China, and he thought Chen Xiaotian might be in class or doing her part-time translation job, so he didn’t want to disturb her. But now, Su Bin was calling in the evening in China, and even if Chen Xiaotian was studying, she would have her phone with her, so there was no reason not to answer.

Worried that something might have happened to Chen Xiaotian, Su Bin quickly found Huang Zhengmin’s number and dialed it… but again, no one answered. He persistently called Guo Li, but the call rang twice before being hung up…

Su Bin felt a wave of panic. Not only did Chen Xiaotian not answer, but his close friends also didn’t answer. Could something really have happened to his girlfriend? And why would they all intentionally hide it from him, afraid that he would worry?… Although this reason seemed a bit far-fetched, it wasn’t impossible.

However, besides this possibility, Su Bin thought of another one: Chen Xiaotian intentionally not answering his calls.

He couldn’t help but tremble, breaking out in a cold sweat… Somehow, Lily’s words “not in love” suddenly flashed in his mind.

At this moment, Su Bin couldn’t help but replay the words Chen Xiaotian had said to him over the phone a month ago and ponder them. They were a couple, so wouldn’t they miss each other if they didn’t call or contact each other? Isn’t it supposed to make them stronger by saying sweet or encouraging words when they miss each other? Why did Chen Xiaotian see it as a sign of vulnerability? If they continued like this, with less and less contact, would their feelings fade? After all, there are countless examples of long-distance relationships breaking up…

Su Bin had never considered the possibility of a long-distance breakup before because he firmly believed in the feelings between him and Chen Xiaotian. However, at this moment, he wavered.

He didn’t know that Lily’s words had already taken root in his heart, sprouted, and spread uncontrollably throughout his body…

In the excruciating wait, Su Bin particularly missed the days when he could see Chen Xiaotian every day. But fortunately, a text message half an hour later eased his anxiety a little bit.

Guo Li: “Just watching a movie, what’s up?”

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Su Bin immediately called back without hesitation, hearing the noisy background, indicating that Guo Li was indeed outside.

“Li, I called Chen Xiaotian, but she didn’t answer. I’m worried something happened to her. Do you know where she is now?” Su Bin asked anxiously.

Guo Li hesitated for a moment and said, “Hey, why would anything happen… She’s a grown-up, what could happen? And she’s been really busy lately. I haven’t seen her for several days… If you’re really worried, should I help you call and ask?”

“Okay, please help me make a call quickly. I called her in the morning, and I just called now, but she didn’t answer. I’m freaking out!” Su Bin replied urgently.

Guo Li laughed helplessly and hung up the phone first.

Su Bin anxiously waited for five minutes and received a text message from Guo Li: “Chen Xiaotian left her phone in the dorm. She’s studying in the library now.”

Su Bin thought Chen Xiaotian had already returned to the dormitory, so he called her again… but still, no one answered! Su Bin quickly called Guo Li back and asked, “How do you know she left her phone in the dorm? I called her, and it’s still not connecting!”

“Uh,” Guo Li hesitated for a moment and stammered, “I asked her roommate, that girl Yu Wen.”

“Oh… ” Su Bin found it strange. He was familiar with Yu Wen as well, but there was a previous instance when Su Bin called Chen Xiaotian and she didn’t answer. When he made the second call, Yu Wen answered and told him about Chen Xiaotian leaving her phone behind to put his mind at ease… Why didn’t it happen this time?

There was a moment of silence on Guo Li’s end, and he asked, “Are you… doing okay recently?”

Su Bin: “…I’m fine.”

Guo Li said, “Bingzi, let me give you some advice as your bro. I think if you can’t go a second without your girlfriend, it might make the girl feel a bit overwhelmed… You know Chen Xiaotian’s personality, being too clingy might backfire.”

Listening to Guo Li’s words, Su Bin didn’t know what to say…

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