I Don’t Know if It’s Really Okay

Translated by Green Cake

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I walked through the quiet corridor and headed for the classroom.

I’m late because Kanau-kun insisted on asking me if Takanashi-san really a girl.

I sent him a picture that we had taken together when we went camping, and somehow he believed me.

He’s so overprotective.

When I arrived at the classroom, I stood in front of the door and took a deep breath.

Thanks to Kanau-kun’s help, I felt much calmer, but I was still scared.

But I knew what I had to do.

I told myself that and opened the door to the classroom.

“I’m sorry, I’m late.”

My voice echoed in the quiet classroom.

The students sitting in front of me looked at me all at once.

Kiniwa-san and Yanomiya-san also looked at me, but there was only one student who kept her eyes on the front.

Takanashi-san is the only one who didn’t look at me.

“Are you not feeling well?”

The teacher standing at the podium asked me.

I wasn’t feeling sick. But I couldn’t just tell her why I was late.

I was in trouble standing at the entrance of the classroom and the teacher told me to take my seat. After that, the teacher didn’t ask me why I was late.

Girls have regular periods when they get sick, you know.

Maybe the teacher misunderstood that I was in such a period of illness, but was having trouble explaining it, and was concerned about me.



After class, Kiniwa-san and Yanomiya-san came up to me.

Takanashi-san still in her seat.

During break time, Takanashi-san used to be the first to come to my seat.

When I think about it, my heart hurts, but I’m sure Takanashi-san must be in an unbearable state of mind.

“Hey, Kuu-chan.”

She was about to climb up on my lap when Kiniwa-san called out to her.

“I want to talk to Amane-chan alone about something. So, Kuu-chan, I want you to stay by Rin-chan side.”

“By Rin’s side?”

When Kiniwa-san asked, Yanomiya-san tilted her head and asked back.

“Kuu-chan is invincible and I can rely on you.”

At Kiniwa-san’s words, Yanomiya-san broke into a big smile.

“Leave it to me!”

After answering that, Yanomiya-san stopped squirming on my lap and ran towards Takanashi-san’s seat.

“Amane-chan, may I have a moment?”

She was smiling as usual, but her smile was somewhat shadowy.

“Y-Yes.”

I swallowed my spit with a gulp and stood up from my seat when I replied.

Maybe, no, definitely, it was Takanashi-san.

I had expected that Kiniwa-san had told Takanashi-san everything. And I think she’s going to tell me about it.

“Thank you.”

Kiniwa-san smiled and thanked me, then started walking, and I followed her.



What Kiniwa-san was heading for was a corridor that connected the school building and the gym.

From the corridor, you can see the courtyard and the pavilion where everyone always eats their lunch.

“I’m sorry. I told Rin-chan everything.”

Kiniwa-san, staring at the pavilion, muttered to herself.

I knew it.

I’ll have to thank Kiniwa-san for that.

If I hadn’t gotten the letter from Takanashi-san, I would have run away. And it could have been irreversible.

“I’m sorry for betraying you, Amane-chan, even though I promised to keep it a secret.”

When Kiniwa-san looked at me like that, her smile disappeared and she bowed deeply.

“I don’t blame you for hating me, Amane-chan. That’s why I apologize as many times as I can. I’ll get down on my knees or whatever.”

She looked up and said in a trembling voice.

Tears began to roll down her cheeks.

“I thought about it a lot, but I thought it would be better to tell Rin-chan. I thought about talking to Amane-chan about it before I told Rin-chan, but if Rin-chan hears about this from someone other than Amane-chan or me, and if she misunderstands… I thought I’d better hurry if I thought that way…”

After explaining in a trembling voice with tears running down her cheeks, Kiniwa-san tried to kneel on the spot.

I’ll get down on my knees or whatever.

As she said, she’s going to get down on her knees for me.

“Thank you.”

I grabbed Kiniwa-san’s arm as she was about to kneel and thanked her.

“What?”

Kiniwa-san tilted her head as if she was surprised that I thanked her.

I’m such an idiot. Not only did I ignore Takanashi-san’s feelings, but I must have pushed Kiniwa-san over the edge as well.

As Kiniwa-san said, if a third party who heard the rumor had talked to Takanashi-san.

It would be awful to hear from a third party that the story was going on on its own without my knowledge.

I should have told Takanashi-san before that happened, but I was rushing into it.

I didn’t have time to persuade her.

That’s why Kiniwa-san told Takanashi-san everything.

Before it was too late.

I’m stunned by my own stupidity, but at the same time, I’m keenly aware of it.

Kiniwa-san is amazing. She’s usually so carefree, but she has a high level of insight and intuition. Above all, she is kind and cares about her friends.

Even though she is usually inconspicuous, she is indispensable.

She is just like a keystone.

“I’m really sorry. I’m truly sorry.”

Then I bowed my head toward Kiniwa-san.

“After reflecting on it, I intend to have a thorough discussion with Rin. So…”

I raised my voice with my head down, and when I looked up――.

“Please continue to lend me your strength. Kiniwa Ena-san. You’re someone I need.”

Then I held out my right hand toward Kiniwa-san.

“I’m actually a little… scared.”

Kiniwa-san smiled and said so, but she didn’t shake my right hand that I held out to her.

Instead, she walked up to me and hugged me.

The sweet scent of her breasts softly hit my nose, and then her large breasts pressed against my normal chest, and my face instantly became as hot as if it was on fire.

I knew Kiniwa-san was amazing.

“It’s hard to get serious and fail, isn’t it? That’s exactly what happened to me in junior high school, and I don’t want to go through that kind of pain again. That’s why I always play it safe and make excuses to myself when I fail because I’m not serious…”

While hugging me, Kiniwa-san whispered in my ear.

“Hey, Amane-chan. Can I… serious with you again?”

She whispered and hugged me tightly.

“I want to see it. I want to see Rin-chan walk proudly down the aisle. I wasn’t able to help her. But this time, Amane-chan was there. Kuu-chan is here too. Alice-chan and Yurizono-san are also here. We all need to work together, and this time…”

She hugged me tightly and buried her face in my shoulder, speaking in a muffled, trembling voice.

I hugged her back tightly.

Listening to her words, I realized that I was about to make another big mistake.

I was going to tell Takanashi-san about the student council president thing, and if she didn’t like it, I was going to back down honestly, but that wouldn’t work.

As Kiniwa-san said, in junior high school, the two of them were serious. That is why it was so traumatic for them to not be able to achieve a satisfactory result.

If Takanashi-san doesn’t want to do it, I may have to back off.

But I should tell her that I’m serious too and try to persuade her.

If I give up easily, I can’t say that I mean it.

I should apologize for my selfish behavior and then try to convince her.

But I can’t say, “Leave it to me.”

I’m not qualified to say such a thing, since I ignored Takanashi-san’s feelings.

But… 

“I’ll give it my all with Rin.”

That’s what I told Kiniwa-san.

“Just so you know, Rin-chan is not mad at you.”

“Eh?”

I was surprised by Sunaba’s words.

She’s not angry? Takanashi-san is?

“Rin-chan will tell you the details.”

“Oh, yes.”

I could only nod at Kiniwa-san’s words.

Takanashi is not angry. But then why the letter…?

I can’t figure it out.

But I will find out by talking to Takanashi-san.

“Hey, hey, look at that…”

I suddenly heard a voice that made me nervous and turned my gaze.

A few girls in gym clothes were looking at me with bright red faces.

The girls looked like they were in their first year of school, judging by their young faces.

The girls are staring at us, red-faced and confused.

“Amane-onee-sama, no, Minazuki-senpai and Kiniwa-senpai are hugging each other…”

“Maybe I saw something I shouldn’t have…”

“W-We might be… erased.”

When I heard her mumbling, I thought, “This is not good.”

I think they saw me and Kiniwa-san hugging and misunderstood.

This isn’t that kind of thing, it’s more of a friendship thing, or in other words, something like that.

Anyway, if I don’t clear up the misunderstanding, I’m going to be in trouble.

“H-He――!?”

Just as I was about to call out to the girls, Kiniwa-san quickly pulled away from me and strode up to them.

The girls, who were all red, instantly turned pale and froze, like frogs stared at by a snake.

“I, I’m in love with Amane-chan. But don’t tell anyone, okay?”

After saying this to the frozen girls, Kiniwa-san put her index finger to her lips and closed one eye with a snap.

Wait, Kiniwa-san. What are you talking about? You’re saying that we love each other but don’t tell anyone.

That’s like asking them to tell everyone.

“I-I won’t tell anyone!”

One of the girls raised her voice with tears in her eyes.

“Actually, I’ve kissed Amane before, but don’t tell anyone about that, okay?”

“Wait!?”

Cold sweat broke out all over my body as Kiniwa-san spoke with a giggle.

If you want to keep it a secret, just don’t tell anyone in the first place.

What do you mean by kissing? I’ve never kissed Kiniwa-san before――.

Ah, no, when everyone came to stay at my house, Takanashi-san and Kiniwa-san, who slept with me, were kissing my cheeks, come to think of it.

But that was when we were both asleep… No, wait.

Could it be that Kiniwa-san was awake!

I huffed when I heard a scream

I turned my gaze impatiently and saw the back of the girls running away.

“I-I can’t let them get away!”

If they ran away with a misunderstanding, they would say all kinds of things about me. Moreover, gossip always has a tail. If left unchecked, it could lead to serious problems.

I was about to chase after the girls when I was grabbed by the arm.

I looked over to see a smiling Kiniwa-san grabbing my arm.

“It’s okay. Let’s just leave it alone.”

Kiniwa-san says such a swallowing thing while giggling happily.

What’s okay with you? It’s not okay at all.

“I-I’m going to go after those kids――.”

“Is there something wrong with spreading a light joke about us being in love?”

Kiniwa-san interrupted my words and cutely tilted her head.

A light joke is… 

Those girls definitely don’t think it’s a joke!

“Hey, Amane-chan, are you planning to have a relationship with a boy?”

“What?”

Planning to have a relationship with a boy? I don’t have any such plans.

“If you don’t plan to have a relationship with a boy, it won’t hurt or hurt you if rumors of girls making love to each other spread.”

“Oh, yeah, well… that’s true, but…”

As Kiniwa-san said, I don’t really have a problem with strange rumors circulating and boys looking at me weirdly.

As I have no intention of dating a boy, it’s rather convenient for me.

But, if rumors spread that girls love each other, they won’t be looked down on not only by boys but also by girls of the same sex.

“G-Girls will look at me like I’m crazy…”

“Haha, don’t worry. It’s pretty normal for girls to make out with each other.”

I was nervous to ask Sunaniwa-san, who laughed and replied while patting my shoulder.

Is this a relatively normal thing? Is that so?

Well, it’s quite common to see girls holding hands with each other.

I think girls are closer to each other than boys are to each other.

But loving each other doesn’t seem to be the right word… 

“I don’t know if that’s okay…”

“Don’t worry. It’s normal.”

Kiniwa-san replied happily to my mumbling.

I wondered if this is really okay.

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