Yearning of You for a Long Time

    The smile on Shi Luo's face was uglier than crying.

    Tang Qishen, who has always been accustomed to controlling everything within the scope of his own plan, felt at a loss for the first time.

    The pen that Shi Luo carefully held in the palm of his hand a few minutes ago rolled on the rough ground several times, until it rolled down to the steps in front of Tang Qishen.

    The boy's back molars were clenched tightly, his side masseter muscles were sharp, and he stared at the pen for a moment, then Shi Luo Ding turned around and ran away.

    "Lolo! Shiluo!" Tang Qishen lost his composure, and hurriedly called her name in a low voice, but the louder the voice, the faster Shiluo ran, as if afraid She didn't want to listen to what he said any more.

    All the girlish fantasies she once had on him are now destroyed, and now there is only embarrassment, and she just wants to escape quickly, as far as possible.

      Make a fool of yourself.

    Probably since the first time she called his brother that year, she never thought that the two of them could get to where they are today.

    The person she has trusted and relied on the most since she can remember, doesn't seem to belong to her anymore.

    Shi Luoqiang held back tears and walked to the bus stop outside the school in a daze. When he saw a car, no matter where he was heading, he ran straight to the car without thinking.

    She has never taken a bus, which is crowded with people, in her life. Picking up and dropping off cars has long been a habit.

    Two tall high school seniors squeezed up behind them, moaning impatiently and urging her to hurry up. The driver who had been busy all day was also in a bad mood. She didn't even have a card to pay for it, thinking she was someone who wanted to rub the overlord's car, the expression on her face changed immediately, and she was scolding.

    Shi Luo was so anxious that tears rolled in his eyes, he could not find a coin after digging out his schoolbag, he subconsciously took out his mobile phone to find Tang Qishen, and when he turned to his WeChat page , She moved her hand for a while, suddenly remembered something, and then brows red, only to realize that she can no longer think about the past, and rely on him casually.

    Tang Qishen came a step late, and the bus had started slowly, heading to the next station.

    When the bus pulled away from his eyes, he watched Shi Luo with his back to the glass door of the car, standing awkwardly in front of the coin-operated card machine, but this time, he couldn't help she.

    In the past, Shi Luo, he had to come to him for every big thing. Cope, even if a mosquito bites a bag, he has to cry and look for him to act like a spoiled child, ask him to scratch it, and force him to say "Even if she is bitten by a mosquito on her face, she is still the most beautiful little princess". people.

    But now, he looked at his quiet mobile phone, that chattering little grandfather who likes to be clingy the most, is leaving him, she doesn't need him anymore.

    Tang Qishen knew for the first time what it felt like to gouge out his heart.

    It seems like it hurts to breathe.

    He thought that he liked someone, to let her free and let her pursue what she wanted, but at this moment he suddenly realized that he was not such an open-minded person, he couldn't do it .

      Selfishness and selfishness are the essence. If you like someone to the extreme, you want to possess them.

    What's more, Shi Luo said he liked him.

    Such a proud and capricious little princess who is not afraid of anything and never puts anyone in her eyes, but because she likes it, she becomes cautious when speaking and doing things in front of him.

    Because she liked it, she seriously promised to learn to be a gentle and obedient girl, she changed herself, in order to make him like it more.

    She was afraid of losing, so she tried very hard to win his love, but because of his self-righteousness, he brought her most feared "loss" to her.

    Tang Qi was deeply afraid that she was emotionally unstable and something happened on the road, so she called a car and followed closely behind the bus.

    When the bus stopped at the park near Ningshuiwan, Shi Luo lowered his head and slowly walked down from above.

    She ran for a while before, and then she sat on the bus and calmed down, only to find that her thigh was aching.

    These are several places that were injured by the steel pipe inside the doll. Yesterday, I was immersed in the fantasy of reconciling with Tang Qishen. Dissipated, but because of the violent running, it appeared to be more and more swollen.

    She walked in the direction of Ningshuiwan with dim eyes. Even if the small park is the closest stop to Ningshuiwan, because of the special location of Ningshuiwan, the wealthy people gather, most of them are escorted by private cars. The car is not useful, so there is no station, and there is still a long, quiet and lonely road from the small park to Ningshuiwan.

    Shi Luo walked very slowly, Tang Qishen silently followed her five meters away, frowning at her obviously wrong walking posture.

    The long and quiet path, Shi Luo walked step by step without fatigue and pain.

    When the two of them went home together and passed this road, Shi Luo's chatter and laughter were always indispensable.

    Most of the time, she was talking, and Tang Qishen was listening, but she was equally happy and enthusiastic. He only needed to respond with an occasional "um", and she could happily continue the unfinished topic.

    In the end, willfulness is no match for a weak body. Shi Luo usually doesn't like sports. Now his arms and legs are injured. Little face pale.

    However, even so, she was still in no mood to experience the pain in her body. The always lively and cheerful girl stared blankly at a place, squatting beside the flower bed along the way, her arms wrapped around her legs, Quiet, no laughter, no more enthusiasm.

    After a few minutes, she seemed to have had enough rest, and stood up again with her palms on her legs. What's wrong?"

    Shi Luo didn't notice that he was following at all, and suddenly appeared in front of him at this moment, more or less feeling unreal.

    She was stunned for a moment, then raised her eyes and glanced at him, only to feel unfamiliar, this is the Tang Qishen who can no longer belong to her.

    Shi Luo shook his head slowly, his voice was hoarse, without a trace of anger: "It's nothing."

    Tang Qi pursed her lips tightly, obviously in disbelief, his eyes all fell on her, his Adam's apple rolled up and down, and then he took the initiative to reach out to hold her wrist: "I'll carry you back, go home There is still a long way to go.”

    In the past, she used to shamelessly rely on him. She liked to hug his waist against his back in his car. Take the initiative to pull her once.

    Shi Luo unconsciously frowned the moment he grabbed her wrist.

    Tang Qishen sensed something was wrong: "The wrist hurts too? Let me see what happened."

    My heart hurts even more, do you want to watch it together?

    Shi Luo immediately took his hand away from his palm without hesitation, and grinned in a dignified manner: "Don't bother senior, thank you."

    As soon as she finished speaking, she speeded up and walked towards home without knowing the pain, and no longer gave Tang Qishen any chance to speak. As soon as she heard his voice, she would step up a few paces point.

    Tang Qi was deeply aware of her stubborn temper and worried that if she forcibly approached, she would only torment herself even more, so she had to quietly embroider behind her, and called the Shijia driver to come out immediately people pick up.

    When Tang Qishen came downstairs to Shi's house, Shi Luo had already locked himself in the bedroom.

    No matter how much Aunt Qiao persuaded outside, she refused to open the door.

    Tang Qishen kept guard downstairs, holding a mobile phone in his hand, but he couldn't wait for a news from the small talker.

    At around eight o'clock in the evening, Shi Shanhai hurried back home, and when Shi Luo heard his father's voice, he suddenly came back to his senses, ran out with his slippers on, and stopped people at the entrance of the stairs.

    Shi Shanhai has been busy these days because of the subsequent fermentation events of the mine explosion. It is rare to see her daughter with a sad face on her face. Red, there was a bit of crying in her words, more squeamishness hidden for a long time: "Dad, I don't want to marry Tang Qishen, shall we cancel the engagement?"

    However, Shi Shanhai was so busy that he lost his head and went home only because he left an important document, and he really couldn't figure out how to deal with these unresolved things, so he had to perfunctory: " Daughter, what's the matter after waiting for a while? Dad has a lot of things recently, so he can't accompany you at home. Be good and listen to his deep words, you know? Dad will go first

    Shi Luo pursed her lips and tried very hard to hold back the sparkling tears.

    She went back to the bedroom, opened WeChat with her mobile phone, found the chat interface with Tang Qishen, and looked at it again, only to find that since he changed this number, the relationship between the two She was the only one talking during the chat, and he hardly replied a message.

    Shi Luo reluctantly blocked the account.

    And then turned to the previous account where he forgot his password, full of chat records back and forth, although she was talking in most cases, but Tang Qishen at that time probably didn't like it On others, she has never missed a single message of her. She read it for a while, but in the end she was not willing to delete it. She stared blankly at the chat record for a long time, and then deceived herself and sent a message.

    "Brother Qishen, do you like the pen? I spent a lot of money to buy it. I have a lot of injuries on my hands and legs! Don't you feel bad..."

    There was no reply from the other side, he forgot the password, just like he forgot all their memories from childhood to adulthood.

    She is the only one who remembers.

    After ten o'clock at night, Aunt Qiao went upstairs to look for Shi Luo again: "Luo Luo, Qi Shen has been waiting downstairs for several hours, and it's still here, what's wrong with you guys? Is it awkward? Don't be sad, don't be sad, Aunt Qiao has scolded him downstairs just now, Luo Luo, let him come up to see you, okay?"

    Shi Luo came back to his senses after a while, and his voice was weak: "He didn't come to see me, he just... Aunt Qiao, please let him go back, and tell him, about the dissolution of the engagement, I will I'll mention it to my father, let him not worry, I'm not the kind of scumbag."

    Tang Qishen didn't go upstairs until two in the morning at night. Shi Luo painted all night in front of his desk. He was very calm. Instead, they were neatly stacked in the upper left corner of the desk, but didn't say a word.

    In the second half of the night, I couldn't hold my energy anymore, so I simply lay down on the desk and fell asleep. When I fell asleep, the brush was still in my hand.

    Aunt Qiao came up to take a look every few minutes uneasy, and finally waited until she fell asleep, and went downstairs to let Tang Qi know.

    Tang Qishen entered the door lightly and cautiously, for fear of disturbing her who finally fell asleep.

    The boy went straight to the table, and a stack of paintings on the table was full of his appearance.

    Tang Qishen clenched his back molars tightly and reached out to hold the person from the chair into his arms.

    The sleeping girl naturally leaned against his chest, grabbed his clothes with both hands and was reluctant to loosen it.

    Tang Qishen gently put the person on the bed, and paused for a moment at the wound of her temple, then gently picked up the loose sleeves of her pajamas, and saw more than one stasis Qing, his face instantly turned cold, and his palms clenched into fists.

    The girl turned over in her sleep, sobbed twice, Tang Qishen leaned over to tuck the quilt for her, and patted her back to comfort her.

    Then gently wiped the wet tears from her cheeks with the back of her hand.

    Tears were messed up, and she was not having a good time in the dream, and she was babbling hazy, Tang Qishen got closer.

    “Where am I@$%@…”

    "Lolo, what?"

    "Where am I...not good enough...?"

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