I Became the Villain of a Romance Fantasy

161 – Make Your Own Decisions

There are a lot of things that shake me around these days.

I didn’t even want to, but they call me here and there, saying that this way is the right way and that way is the right place. Why am i a warrior Why is the Archbishop telling me this? Everyone doesn’t tell me the answer, but just throws a few clues and tells me to find the answer.

I didn’t express it, but even one of these things made my head hurt, and as many of these things came in like a tide, my head was so complicated that I was on the verge of death.

It wasn’t even a concern that I could tell others about, so I feel like I’m going to have a disease in my heart when I’m suffering alone. She even thought about confiding in Elena, but the problem was that she wasn’t ready to answer in her own way.

Until now, I thought only pagans could do it, but that’s not the case. I realized once again that life is not that simple.

I think it’s a little too much to change the goal at all.

The pagans who were supposed to be the target destroyed themselves by themselves. Altair, who I hadn’t even thought about at all, suddenly appeared and called me a hero. And the reality that the foreign media standing at the opposite point might be my lover is really strange.

Originally, human life is such an unknowing thing, but I wonder if my thoughts are still set in the framework of novels. I’m trying to design the future according to my knowledge, so I wonder if I’m going through this hardship, but no matter how much, my situation right now wasn’t normal.

Hagi, reincarnating into a novel in the first place isn’t normal.

I was in a situation where I couldn’t help but be confused in many ways, so I asked my father, whom I hadn’t seen in a while, to fight.

Originally, when there are a lot of thoughts in your head, there is no better answer than emptying it.

Like monks entering the state of gratification through self-mortification, sparring with one’s father hurts a little, but there’s nothing like it to empty the thoughts in one’s head. It’s because it’s as hard as the penance they do.

As a result, my body and mind were in a difficult state.

It must have been too big to be called a wandering thought, so I guess it wasn’t that easy to empty.

My father seemed to notice that something was wrong with me, even though I didn’t say much. Maybe it’s because the sword, which is not enough even if it’s emptied, is full of idle thoughts. He told me to speak up if he had a problem, but he didn’t keep asking me if he knew I wasn’t talking to anyone after seeing me without saying anything.

Instead, he gave me a piece of advice as if I was just listening.

“Damian. You are a very thoughtful person. That is your strong point. But that is also your weak point. You don’t have to be always right and try to get the best results. I just need to run.”

“Well, what if things get worse? Wouldn’t it be irresponsible to act like that without thinking?”

“If the situation worsened due to your choice, you should take responsibility for it. If you’re dizzy like you are now, you’re bound to ruin the things you normally would have done easily. The important thing is to make your own decisions. If you keep worrying, nothing will happen. Is there any difference from not doing it? This is also included in the sword law.”

We had been sparring with swords until just now, so the father and son had swords in their hands. Without a word, my father swung his sword in the direction I was in, and I reflexively thrust my sword in to block it.

As I was pushed back with a clicking sound, my father smiled and asked me.

“Damian, did you notice any wandering thoughts about the sword just now?”

“It was a clean swordsmanship as always.”

“Isn’t that strange? I swung my sword at my son, but how can I not get mixed up with my thoughts? Maybe it’s because I’m a heartless person. It’s not like that. I’ve already made up my mind to win the match against you. Because once you’ve made a decision, you have to follow it.”

When I made a face that said, “Isn’t that what it is?”, His father hardened his face and continued.

“I don’t know if you were young, but from the time you became a fully-fledged martial artist, you started fighting with this mindset. But sometimes, Damian, rather than thinking that you would beat me, I was worried that I might get hurt while competing with you. At that time, I was overjoyed in its own way, but now I know that those thoughts are holding you back.”

“I did that?”

“Yes. My son. I mean arrogantly. Up until now, you have often overpowered me with your skills. Even if you and your opponents didn’t notice, you always thought that way when you competed with your acquaintances or friends.”

What an arrogant idea.

I wanted to refute what my father said, but when I heard it, I couldn’t deny that I had that kind of heart in a corner of my heart. I knew that I had a lot of thoughts in my head, but I couldn’t have noticed that I was unconsciously paying attention to such things.

My father beckoned me to get up, and this time he took a proper jockeying ceremony.

I also took the jockeying ceremony accordingly and ran towards each other at the same time as my father.

“Damian. I don’t know what you’re thinking about, but think simply. And once you’ve decided that, think about that one thing. You can think about other things later.”

“Don’t be afraid to make mistakes. Even God can’t be perfect, so how can there be a perfect human being in this world? You just have to make up for it. You are not alone. Don’t forget that there is a family behind you.”

“The most important thing is to do what you want to do.

Every time swords collided, my father’s voice mingled with the sound of metal.

As the sharing of sums while listening to non-Buddhist chanting continued for a long time, at some point, I started to wield my sword recklessly. The advice my father gave me stuck to my tongue, and I memorized it and unified my mind according to the advice.

As I memorized my father’s words, my mind seemed to clear up.

Maybe it’s because I’m facing my father’s sword that seems like it’s really going to kill me because of the question and answer I just said. In addition, since I received my father’s advice and knew which path I should take in the future, it can be said that I gained my own realization.

I don’t feel the hesitation my father said. In other words, I became a selfish person who gave up thinking of others, but on the contrary, I knew that holding a weapon and wielding it while thinking altruistic thoughts inside was a contradiction.

I could feel that the sword naturally became lighter the more I wielded it.

It wasn’t until after the sparring that I saw a wound on my father’s right arm. He was a father who seemed like he couldn’t even make a flaw, but I made a flaw there. I can’t remember how that was possible, even thinking about it now.

I think it was like that when I went into selflessness, but it was natural that I couldn’t remember it.

My arm was dripping with blood, but my father sent me outside laughing at what he liked so much. It’s a little strange, but it seemed that he knew from the scars on his body that my troubles had been resolved.

The reason I was able to speak so confidently to Noel or Altair was because I had finished organizing my mind like this. Thinking back on it, this is pretty cool. You don’t have the feeling of a little sudden rash, but after spitting it out, there is a feeling of relief that clears the inside.

It felt like the plug that had been blocking my throat for a long time was opening.

“Wheesung, what is that…”

Seeing that the old name, not Damian, comes out of Noel’s mouth, it certainly seems fitting that Altair is connected to Noel. Is it because today is the Holy Spirit Festival that they pop out without warning? I did not feel that I was constrained by time as before.

As before, her voice felt compulsive, but perhaps because she had grown up, her power could no longer affect me.

Since she had already made up her mind, I didn’t listen to her Altair until the end and turned her head and said to her.

“See you at the venue.”

Perhaps because I said that, Altair never caught me. She must have known that the conversation she was having now was meaningless. A gaze filled with complex emotions hit me in the back of the head, but I steadfastly walked forward.

“Then it’s Elena this time…”

I got out of her seat and moved her steps toward where Elena might be.

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Altair wasn’t the only one who had to say this.