I Became the Villain of a Romance Fantasy

162 – Promise(1)

When I first became Damian, no, when I realized that I was living a second life, the goal I set was to protect my family.

The reason I took the obvious and took it grandly was because of the fact that I was Damian Krause, the villain in the novel. The villain is bound to be destroyed, and in fact, the Krause family fell into trouble due to Damian’s actions, so it was only natural to set the goal so that they would not go through this.

For me, who had experienced losing a family member in a previous life, this was a very important issue.

I know that the person who has lost knows the pain better, and that this can never be a second chance, but that doesn’t mean you leave it as it is knowing what will happen in the future.

Simplely, it was my behavior, but it was also an easy problem to solve because I just had to be careful. More than anything, I loved this family who loved me.

And it was the death of his mother, Arwen, that started this idea in earnest.

She went about her daily life as usual, but one day her mother fell asleep forever in her favorite flower garden without any warning from her.

The cause of her death was debilitating due to congenital constitution. There were no other causes. It wasn’t that any villain was like that, and it wasn’t that he died of an illness. She could only say that she had closed her eyes because the time had come.

It is a world where swords, magic, and divine power exist, but it seems that it could not be stopped.

My mother’s death was quiet, but it was also sudden.

It was not impossible for her weak mother to leave her side like that, but for me, she was not thinking about her death, so this was obviously sudden. How can it not be sudden that the person who smiled and said hello the day before yesterday sat in a chair peacefully and did not wake up the next day.

I knew that her body was weak from the start, but perhaps because of the name I had, I still felt that her death was my fault. Because I was a villain, there was no exact basis, but it seemed that the cracks in the family I loved was due to the fate of my name.

Should I say why Damian became a villain, the process up to that time seems to be repeating itself to me? Why did Damien in the novel become an idiot? After going through the death of his mother, the scenes were drawn one by one in my head like a picture.

The father-son relationship has been strained by the death of his mother.

Communication between father and son is cut off, and a child who loses someone who can heal his wounds is broken.

A story like that when a father gets out of his sorrow first and when he gets his child back, it’s already irreversible, and he pays attention even to his second son who is still young.

The image of a crooked aristocratic boy with such a typical story runs through my head like a scene from a cartoon. It may be just my imagination, but for some reason I felt like it was the truth.

So, is the mother’s death just a possibility for Damien Krause to transform into a villain? I remember her mother’s kindness and beauty. I knew that her death was not light enough to be dismissed as mere probability.

I wonder if it was from then. I started a rivalry with Damien Krauss in my heart. I don’t know what kind of life Damian originally lived, but at least he decided to become a better person than the previous Damian.

I wasn’t a child who didn’t know anything, and I was confident that I wouldn’t become the idiot I showed in the novel. Even if he grew old without doing anything like this, he wouldn’t become a villain like Damian in the original story.

But when I thought about the meaning of my mother’s death, I couldn’t stay still.

I didn’t want her death to be left to the world as a mere part of probability. If Damian’s mother was sacrificed due to the possibility of becoming a villain, the repulsive feeling that she would move in the opposite direction became the driving force that moved me.

It’s fate.

Originally, opinions differed from the fact that fate existed, but to me, who became a character in a novel and already knew the future through books, fate was the same as already existing.

Because the contents of the book that will happen in the future were fate for me as a character.

Then my destiny must be to become a villain. That’s because I was Damien Krause. But I have no intention of conforming to him. Who would take Mother away and follow the path that ends in ruin?

If Damian was destined to become a villain, I will never let him go his way. That was the meaning of my new mother’s death.

Maybe it’s just that I was a little overzealous.

As I tried to escape from that fate, I ended up getting an obsession with the thought of ‘I need to get better’ every time. Calling it an obsession may sound negative, but this kind of obsession is evidence of resistance against fate in its own way.

Originally, obsessive compulsion is caused by anxiety and unstable mind, but for me, the only way to treat it was to escape fate, so until it was resolved, it was no different from an incurable disease.

That doesn’t mean it’s only having a bad effect, though the bed is a bit uncomfortable, but anyway, it’s a good thing to take care of yourself to be better than you were before. Except for the element of anxiety, it didn’t seem that bad, so I didn’t think about fixing it.

But when I think about it now, it seems that this obsession still remains with me because I was so complacent. That too in a bad way.

Originally, I wanted to escape from the bondage of this fate by not getting engaged to Elena and completely breaking away from the original story, but I couldn’t. In fact, it was during the meeting with Elena that I felt the real existence of fate.

Thoughts that she hadn’t even thought about usually popped out of her head as she looked at Elena’s face. When she sees Elena, how she struggles to keep her sanity because of her mind bouncing around…

Anyway.

I don’t know if it’s because of my efforts so far or because I’m a completely different person from Damian, but even if I don’t completely get out of Elena’s story like I initially thought, I’ve walked a different path from my original destiny.

I know in my head that it is simple to keep things from going the way they were originally meant to be, but having a simple solution like this made me doubt myself.

I hope you realize that your destiny has changed here, but unfortunately at that time, I couldn’t erase my doubts about my own destiny because the world was still before the ‘original’ thing started.

I couldn’t easily shake off the worry and anxiety that, like the thoughts that popped out of my head when I first met Elena, the relationship that I had built up until now would flow like a novel once the original story started. The contents were already wrong, but the aftermath of the obsession that I had not been paying attention to thinking while mentioning the original work was now appearing.

You should just put it down and think simply.

If I hadn’t known about the future, I wouldn’t have been obsessed with it, but what’s the point of lamenting now? I’m just a little disappointed that I had a hard time wrapping my head around useless things.

Of course, I didn’t want to change to this extent, but now it’s just nice.

***

The place where I met Elena was not too far from the seats overlooking the venue.

She was supposed to come there after her duel, so she could have waited without going out to find Elena. She had moved because it was better to be alone with Elena anyway, as long as she and I were talking about her.

Seeing that I was not waiting in my seat, but outside, Elena looked puzzled as she approached me.

“Damian. Why are you out there?”

“I waited but he didn’t come, so I came out to find him, wondering if he might have lost his way. Oh, what kind of Orcus do you think? I saw him lying down laughing earlier.”

“Ahahahaha…”

Judging by Elena trying to get over it with her laugh, it seems that Orcus hasn’t come to his senses yet.

Well, since he was beaten like that, it would be impossible for Orcus to come to his senses already, no matter how good his resilience is. It’s a picture, it’s less ugly than the previous sparring, but the damage received will be greater this time. Still, if he was satisfied with himself, that would be great.

“Unlike before, this time I felt more energetic. There were a few areas where I was lacking, but it was nice to see that he was determined, unlike Orcus. Orcus isn’t someone who can change things easily. What did Damian say? “

“I did say something, but I think it’s more because of Elena than that.”

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Perhaps the appearance Orcus showed in this match was quite impressive, and Elena rarely praised Orcus. Up until now, she had been Elena who kept a distance only from Orcus, but she seems to have changed her perception a little with this couple.

We didn’t go back to our seats right away, but continued talking as we walked around.

Her conversation didn’t have a specific topic, as she always did, but Elena felt like she was deliberately prolonging the conversation to see if she knew there was something I wanted to say. To be honest, she still couldn’t decide what to say to Elena, so she needed time and she was lucky.

Is it because the conversation partner is Elena? She’s been pretty good against Altair, but she’s very careful about what she says to Elena.

Time passed, and when it was Reinhardt’s turn to appear as the president after a duel in progress, Elena asked me while looking at her president.

“Everyone seems to have worked really hard to prepare for their spleen faces. Damian seems to be working hard this time, unlike other times. Is there any meaning to this Holy Spirit Festival?”

Looking at Reinhardt, Elena’s question to me seemed to contain many meanings. Partly to meet the expectations of Reinhardt, who burns rivalry with me, and partly to prevent a collision with Elena and Altair. What did Elena mean by asking me the question?

No matter what they said, neither answer was wrong.

Looking at the question, I wonder if this answer will be something I should say to Elena, without having to think deeply about what I should say. With my options narrowed down, I pinched Elena’s cheek and answered her question.

“If you ask me like that, I’m like a guy who usually flirts around. Do I think I’m a guy who likes to lose?”

“Ahhhhh…”

“Where is the stage where you can fight to the best of your ability without worrying about what other people think. So, it’s just that you look a little different than usual. By the way, this time, even though Elena is my opponent, I decided to be strong. I think it would be good for Elena to prepare too?”

“Eh. Really?! Are you really going to fight me?”

The look in Elena’s eyes looking up at me seems to be asking if she’s really going to do that. I replied with a nod of her head that creaked in response.

“… Yes. It’s Noel and I’m going to win after I beat Reinhardt Go. I’ll dedicate the honor of her win to Elena.”

“Then can’t I just win?”

That’s a bit.

As I looked at her with a puzzled face, Elena smiled and said to me.

“Then I’ll dedicate that honor to you if I ever win. Damian. I promise. Now, put your fingers up. Promise.”

“Promise.”

Elena and I crossed our fingers and put our thumbs together.

I wonder what kind of confidence we made with each other, but anyway, the important thing in this promise wasn’t winning. It was enough for me to make sure she was on my side and I was on her side.