The Nation’s Male God Fell In Love With Me

  Chapter 1762 Seeking Ren De Ren

Lin Jingsheng has always been relatively rational. Since he was a child, he has actually been a very rational person. Even if he is as stable as Lu Bai, he sometimes loses control. He thinks that everything in this life, except Ai Chulin, is in his plan. He followed the plan. He knew exactly what he wanted. When Chu Lin approached him, he could see through Chu Lin's intentions. When he knew that he couldn't get rid of the royal identity, he knew that he and Chu Lin has come to an end, so he has been trying to find a way to find a balance, to find a way that both he and Chu Lin can accept to resolve the deadlock between them.

Chu Lin has a very serious desire for monopoly and mental cleanliness. He absolutely cannot tolerate him having a pair of children. No matter how much he wants a child to inherit the throne, even if he is willing to sacrifice everything to change a child to inherit the blood, Chu Lin will not be able to bear it. Endure this, so he knows very well that no matter what he thinks, he will cut off his thoughts. He forced himself to cut off his thoughts, but he thought of a way to get the best of both worlds. If the child belongs to Chu Lin, this matter will be solved perfectly up.

   As for him, he thought, he's all right.

He can tolerate it, he can no longer promise Chu Lin, he can't hold Chu Lin's hand, walk in the sun, and he can't bring Chu Lin home to accept the blessings of his parents. Losing his own life, there are so many things he can't do, he has so much helplessness, but at least, there is one thing he can do, he can endure what ordinary people can't bear for Chu Lin.

  He can offer this country with both hands for Chu Lin.

   "Why didn't you say it earlier?" Chu Lin growled, and turned into a rage, "Why did you do this, are you punishing me?"

  Why, his heart hurts so much?

He already hated the past three years of indifference, hated his three years of childishness, hated why he gave up the three years with A Sheng because of inexplicable concerns, he had already reflected on himself, blamed himself, but unexpectedly, Because of Lin Jingsheng's words, he wished to go back in time and beat himself up three years ago. Why was he so naive? What was it that fascinated his eyes? He was very possessed. This is a very simple matter, why has it become so complicated in his eyes, what is he going to do? What is he going to do?

  Ah Sheng, do you want me to die of heartache?

  He was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

  His Ah Sheng.

  In the past three years, how many grievances he has endured.

  Why is he so stupid?

   "I... can't say it." Lin Jingsheng looked at him with a smile, and he was very calm when he mentioned the past, without any sadness. He already felt that this sadness was nothing, because it was over.

  The children grow up too.

"You can't say it, but you can do it, you can do it, you can..." Chu Lin was furious, but he knew that he was the person who had the least right to be angry, because the children It was all his, Ah Sheng would not lie to him with this kind of thing, no wonder he was so keen to make out with him during that time, it turned out that it was for this matter, for the sake of the child, he was so stupid, so stupid that he didn't think of it.

  He never thought that Ah Sheng would sacrifice to such an extent for him.

  Chu Lin suddenly hugged him in his arms, he was so heartbroken.

  He's too much of an asshole.

   "Ah Sheng, you..."

   What do you want me to say?

  A man does not flick his tears easily, but not to the point of sadness.

   Really just didn't get to the heartbreak.

Lin Jingsheng gave him a hug back, he thought, how much forbearance, admiration, and sadness can all be resolved with a hug. They have been chasing and searching for more than ten years, and have experienced too many things, but they finally crossed over. Even in the cold winter, they crossed the wind and sand, embraced each other, and kept each other warm. Lin Jingsheng thought that they would be able to walk hand in hand in this life, and there would be no more twists and turns, no more complaints, no more blame.

   "Actually, you don't have to blame yourself, I'm doing it for myself." Lin Jingsheng said.

"Why are you doing it for yourself? It's obviously because of me..." It's obviously because he cares too much, he's too stupid, it's because he has a gap that he can't cross, because he has too much hesitation and is not firm enough, so Ah Sheng tolerates, Even conniving, he doesn't know the blessings in the blessing, how can he make him sacrifice to such an extent, he clearly knows Lin Jingsheng's helplessness better than anyone else, but he has been persecuting him, he clearly knows that if their feelings are betrayed Knowing that it will kill Ah Sheng, he still longs to walk with Ah Sheng in the sun, he is really too naive, naive to a certain level...

  How will he face Ah Sheng?

  If the person Ah Sheng fell in love with wasn't him, if he wasn't such a stupid person, perhaps, Ah Sheng wouldn't have to sacrifice like this.

   "Why are you so stupid."

"I did it for myself." Lin Jingsheng said softly, "Ah Lin, if I really had a child, you never knew it. In the past three years, although you have decided to come back, you decided not to care about it. That's because of this. Three years of getting nothing, you think being with me is more important than your knots, so you ignore your knots, but he has always existed and has not disappeared, so you don't mind. I I was thinking, if both Jiang and Zhouzhou are my children and we are together, one day in the future, if we quarrel, I will not have the stand and confidence to face you, nor can I stand in the same position as you to love You, I will even feel that all this is...painful. What if one day our quarrel hurts the child? This kind of life is definitely not what I want, so it is fair, I have many things that I cannot give to You, but child, I can give it to you, it's fair to you and me, I don't mind, you believe me, I really don't mind."

   Chu Lin thought, how could he not mind?

  Lin Jingsheng didn't know how to explain his state of mind to Chu Lin, or maybe he couldn't explain it all the time.

  But what he said was the truth.

He has been ashamed of Chu Lin so much. If there is another child, there will be problems in the relationship between him and Chu Lin in the future, and he will lose his balance. In this case, he will be very sad. To solve future problems, he doesn't think it matters, it doesn't matter at all.

  He loves Chu Lin, and he also loves the children.

  The kids have been with him for three years and he loves them so much.

"In the past three years, I have wanted to tell you the truth countless times. I didn't know that your leg was healed. If I had known that your leg was healed earlier, I wouldn't have delayed it for so long. For me, it takes a day. It's just wasting a little time with you, life is passing day by day, so why waste it?" Lin Jingsheng sighed, "Ah Lin, this is all my choice, you don't have to feel sorry for me, I seek kindness and benevolence."

  (end of this chapter)