Winner Takes All

In the next few days, Li Shuo didn't go out. Wen Xiaohui would come for an hour or two every day to watch him eat his meal, and then he would leave safely. People who usually shout at me are very careful at this time.

Li Shuo was a bit of a loser most of the time, except when he had to pretend to be light on the phone with his mother. He is a man of good face. Fortunately, only Wen Xiaohui can see what he looks like now.

These days, there is always a sense of unreality in the clouds, sometimes I feel that everything I heard that day is a dream, sometimes I feel that everything I heard with Zhao Jinxin is a dream in itself, because the reality should not be so dramatic or ugly. In any case, it is hard for him to accept that he will fall down like this. He knows rationally that he should be free and easy to say goodbye to the past of failure, but emotionally he can't do it. The despair of seeing himself out of control but helpless and unable to save is the most painful thing for him.

This time, it doesn't work to give yourself a big reason.

On Monday morning, Li Shuo received a call from his assistant asking him why he hadn't arrived at the company.

At that time, Li Shuo didn't wake up. Hearing this question, he felt confused.

Assistant dundun: "Mr. Li, you are not still sleeping, are you?"

Li Shuo suddenly remembered that he was going to study the quarterly report in ennan today. As early as when he was in Yangcheng, his assistant reminded him, but now his mind is empty and he can't remember anything.

Li Shuo rubbed his eyes: "I'm sorry, I Too much. " He made up a poor excuse casually. He wished he had drunk too much. When he woke up, people would wake up. Unlike now, people can't get drunk without drinking.

"Wow." The assistant said with emotion, "Mr. Li, I've been with you for four years. You've never delayed your work. Isn't it lovelorn?"

The assistant was just a casual joke, but lishuo's heart was tense, as if he had been pulled off the veil in public, and his whole body trembled.

Seeing that Li Shuo didn't speak, the assistant realized that he was speechless and said: "Mr. Li, I'm joking. If you are not feeling well, please rest at home. We will report to you after our research."

Li Shuo knows that he scares the assistant. He is easygoing and gets along with his subordinates like friends. Today's abnormality - whether he forgets important business or can't make fun of it, is really enough to surprise the people around him. He blocked his eyes with the back of his hand and said wearily, "well, send a summary to my email. If you have any questions, please call me at any time."

"Yes."

Hang up the phone, Li Shuo slowly put down his hand, get up the remote control on the cabinet, open the curtains.

As the curtain retreated to both sides, the dazzling sunlight diffused into the bedroom, which was more and more affected by the golden color, until it was sprinkled on him, he narrowed his eyes under the strong light, but felt a long lost warmth.

If the sun can really kill bacteria, it's better to kill his depression. He was lying in the sun, holding a funny piety.

He didn't get up from the bed until the sun made his head dizzy. He walked into the bedroom.

In the mirror, there is a bearded face. The upper eyelids are puffy and the lower eyelids are blue and purple. In a few days, the cheekbones can be seen faintly. It's different from Li Shuo, who is usually in high spirits.

He looked at the mirror without blinking, and the more he looked, the more angry he was.

Why do you make yourself such a virtue

He forcibly took off his pajamas, walked into the shower naked, and without hesitation turned on the tap. Now it's early autumn, the water temperature is very cold, he was excited to shake, and his skin instantly gave out pieces of gooseflesh, but at the same time, he was very happy.

After taking a bath, he shaved in front of the mirror, but he didn't know whether it was hard to concentrate or whether his eyes were dry and swollen. He cut the skin with a knife, and the blood immediately flowed down his chin. He took out a tissue to cover the breach, and the tissue was soon soaked with blood.

He threw the razor angrily, his hands powerless to support the washstand, unable to raise his head for a long time.

Ears inexplicably ring again Zhao Jinxin that frivolous "haven't played enough.".

Not enough fun.

Not enough fun.

What was Zhao Jinxin's expression at that time? Mocking? Proud? What is Shao Qun's expression? Despised? Cheap? All he knew was that he was standing outside the door, his face seemed to burn in the next second.

His cultivation is not enough, his mind is not broad enough, so that he can't let go until now.

He clung to the marble platform, his fingerbones turning blue and white with too much force.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

Li Shuo raised his head. He thought it was Wen Xiaohui. He rubbed the blood off his chin and put on his bathrobe to open the door.

The moment the door opened, he froze.

What appears in the sight is not Wen Xiaohui with a bright and beautiful smile, but Zhao Jinxin, who has no expression.

Li Shuo felt that the blood was frozen in an instant, and then the tiny blood vessels broke and exploded in his body one by one, and the body kept sending bursts of pain. He lowered his head subconsciously and didn't want Zhao Jinxin to see his embarrassment. His hand became a fist behind his back and he said in a deep voice: "come and get something? Just give me my key. "But Zhao Jinxin reached out to him: "your chin..."

Li Shuo's eyes changed and he suddenly opened them.

"Pa" sound is like a slap on someone's face. Where they have been touched, bone collision, skin friction, and spicy pain, both of them are frozen.

Lishuo knew that he had overreacted, but he could not resist the resistance in his body. He said coldly, "shaving is all. Give me the key."

Zhao Jinxin lowered his eyes and stepped forward to come in.

Lishuo didn't get out of the way. He stopped at the door: "your things have been packed." He bent down, picked up a bag from the door and threw it at Zhao Jinxin's feet. If Zhao Jinxin didn't come, he was going to throw it away. He reached out and repeated, "the key".

"I'm here to send you materials. You didn't come to the meeting today. I'm worried about you..." Zhao Jinxin shakes the information in his hand.

"I just overslept." Lishuo took the information and added, "key."

Zhao Jinxin stared at lishuo's eyes and said softly, "I didn't take it."

"Then throw it away." Lishuo is going to close.

Zhao Jinxin propped up the door, raised his head, looked directly at Li Shuo, and said solemnly, "Li Shuo, I'm sorry."

Li Shuo's heart trembled violently, and his anger went straight to his head. He stifled: "I don't accept it. Go away." That's about to close again. But the hand against the door didn't know how strong he was. Li Shuo pushed hard and didn't push it. He narrowed his eyes and said, "what do you mean?"

Zhao Jinxin pursed her lips, looked deeply into her eyes and whispered, "I don't want to do that."

"Of course you don't want to. After all, you haven't had enough fun." Maybe I'm used to it. It's no big deal to cut the wound repeatedly.

"No." "I'm not going to hurt you," Zhao said clearly

What a funny thing to say, but lishuo couldn't laugh: "how do you plan? When you don't have enough fun, tell me to have a serious relationship. When you have enough fun, find a "decent reason" to break up. Everything is in your mind. That's your plan, isn't it? " Li Shuo shook and bit his back teeth. "Why should I be teased like this? Just because I like you? " The word "like" was almost chewed and swallowed by Li Shuo and spit out with blood.

"Like" is clearly one of the most beautiful words in the world, but now it has become disgusting.

"Like" what Gu, want to be so spoiled.

Zhao Jinxin's eyelashes trembled slightly: "I really like you..."

"You don't deserve to say these two words." These two words are like curses to lishuo now, "do you think I don't know what you are thinking? You are still young, like me today, maybe like others tomorrow, so you want ship. " He sneered. "But, I, no, I want to, do you understand? I don't want to. Everything you do makes me feel sick. It's the same as your cousin. You deserve to be a family. "

Zhao Jinxin's eyebrows twisted, and he looked at Li Shuo sadly: "Uncle Li, I'm sorry..."

"Let go." Li Shuo said without expression.

“…… Thank you for my birthday. "

"Let go!" Li Shuo pushed him hard and stumbled on the door.

One door apart, Li Shuo seemed to feel the breath belonging to Zhao Jinxin. He gasped heavily to contain the almost overflowing indignation. He squatted on the ground with his head in his hands and punched his skull severely.

After a long delay, Li Shuo got up from the ground and went back to the bathroom. His beard had not been shaved completely. He had a little blood oozing from the wound and his eyes were red. The whole man looked like a lost dog.

Yes, in this game, he lost in a mess.

Li Shuo yelled angrily and long at himself in the mirror, which made his chest tremble. The roar echoed in his mind, which had an enlightening effect, as if it roughly woke up his self in the dark.

The rubbish in the mirror is not Li Shuo! No one can change him!

He grabbed the razor, carefully hung off the messy stubble, washed the dry blood, dried the messy hair, then went back to the bedroom, picked up a suit to put on, took the key and wallet and went out.

He needs to go to the sun, contact with the crowd, and clean up all the dark gloom and grumpiness around him.

After all, it's just lovelorn.

It's just lovelorn.

Li Shuo calls Wen Xiaohui and asks him to have a meal. Wen Xiaohui is overjoyed to hear that he has gone out. He rushes to the restaurant as fast as he can.

When Wen Xiaohui saw him, he was surprised: "brother Li, you've spent so many days in the house, and you've worked it out!"

Li Shuo smiled lightly: "although the food you sent is delicious, I don't want to eat take away any more."

"Hahaha, or I'll do it for you.""Leave me alone."

Wen Xiaohui looks at lishuo without blinking, smiling.

Li Shuo touched his chin: "well, it was shaved when he shaved. It's OK. His face is not very good, is it?"

"But still very handsome." Wen Xiaohui winked at him. "I'm relieved to see you."

Lishuo smiled: "I will be OK."

Wen Xiaohui doesn't change his natural color. He always adjusts the atmosphere when eating. They talk and laugh.

After dinner, Li Shuo proposed to go shopping.

"Let's go. What do you want? I'm a buyer close to the professional level, and I promise to make you look blind. "

"Take a look. It's mainly for you."

"Buy it for me?" Wen Xiaohui pointed to himself, "what do you want to buy for me?"

"Want to spend money." Li Shuo rubbed his hair. "I want to spend money for you."

Wen Xiaohui hugged his arm and cried affectionately, "Dad."

Li Shuo laughed. He knew that Wen Xiaohui could not be short of money. Even though he didn't have a high income, he was still supported by Luo Yi, but his mood needed some proper vent.

The two settled their accounts and went straight to the shopping mall. Li Shuo quietly watched Wen Xiaohui try on clothes and choose matching. He tangled among different colors, muttering that the pants were not of a good pattern, and that pair of shoes were not suitable for heightening mats. When he went shopping with his mother, it was so fun. He would never be impatient, as long as the other side had a satisfied smile on his face.

Although this adorable big boy doesn't belong to him, he can get the feeling of being needed from him - that's what he needs now.

After a few hours of shopping, Luo Yi called three times. Wen Xiaohui couldn't stand it, so he had to go back.

Li Shuo carried his shopping bag to him and sent him to the car.

Wen Xiaohui smiled brightly: "thank you, brother Li."

"Are you happy today?" Lisho looked at him gently.

"Happy!"

"That's good. Go back." Lisho closed the door for him.

Wen Xiaohui lowered the window and gave him a kiss: "brother Li, how are you?"

Li Shuo gave him a thumbs up: "be careful on the road."

Wenxiaohui's car drove away. Lishuo stood by the street and watched the car disappear.

It's really hard to be alone Li Shuo decided to visit Sanya in a few days. After the investigation, he went back to the United States, where there was his home.

He got on the car, hesitated for a moment, took out his cell phone, dialed a phone: "Hello, Xiao Qi, I'm Li Shuo, are you free today..."

Li Shuo came home, made the room a little more regular, and then sat on the sofa.

In fact, he regretted after calling, but if he refused again, he would not play with others.

He just wanted to find someone to accompany him, not to prove anything.

Li Shuo, what do you want to prove?

When the doorbell rang, Li Shuo woke up and went to open the door.

At the door stood a handsome sunny boy. He was not tall and thin. He was dressed in a fashionable way: "Hi, boy, I haven't seen him for a long time."

Li Shuo said with a smile, "long time no see, come in."

The boy's name is Xiao Qi. Li Shuo doesn't know his name. They met at the bar. They did it several times. After meeting Li Chengxiu, they didn't get in touch with each other anymore. Today, he didn't know what kind of attitude he was when he called and the other answered.

"Brother, you don't look very well. Are you ill?"

Li Shuo shook his head: "I've been too busy recently. I don't have a good rest. It's OK."

"Oh, you look thin." Xiaoqi stretched out and looked around. "Your family is so big. Did I come once? I don't have much impression. "

"Yes." Li Shuo said, "have you eaten?"

"No." "Small Qi pulls the arm of Li Shuo to act coquettishly way," elder brother you do for me

"Well, what would you like to eat?"

"Whatever."

"I don't have many ingredients at home, so I'll make whatever I want." Li Shuo said with a smile, "go to watch TV."

"Ah."

Li Shuo opened the refrigerator and only wenxiaohui bought some dishes to make salad. Otherwise, they were leftovers. He was not good at giving people leftovers, but he really had nothing to do. So he cooked two bowls of noodles.

Xiaoqi did not make complaints about it, he enjoyed it very much, and told him about his internship experience. In a moment, he was very good at it. He said that his colleague was buttocks and Li Shuo was smiling. He didn't care what Xiaoqi said, but the big house needed a voice.

After dinner, the two watched the movie together, and Xiao Qi sat on Li Shuo and kissed him with his face.

Lishuo hugged his slender waist and responded skillfully, but the heart lake was dead calm.

Kiss for a while, small Qi slightly frown: "elder brother, how?"

It's easy to tell if you're passionate about kissing.Li Shuo smiled: "nothing." He holds Qi's waist, presses the boy on the sofa, kisses his cheek and neck, and gently removes his clothes.

Xiao Qi tried hard to tease him, obviously a little emotional.

They rolled from the sofa to the wool carpet, and every step of the foreplay seemed to follow the rules. But lishuo had a kind of indescribable resistance in his heart. He resisted this resistance. He forced himself into the front. Under these two contradictions, he couldn't concentrate any more, but he was fighting against the idea in his mind against his will. Finally, he didn't even know What is your true will!

"Brother..." Xiao Qi gave a little cry.

Lishuo returned to God and looked at him in alarm.

Qi said awkwardly, "if you don't have a mind, don't I can't help it. "

Li Shuo realized that he had not yet responded. His brain was in a mess and Zhao Jinxin's face appeared uncontrollably, which made him abhorrent.

He propped himself up and said in a deep voice, "Xiao Qi, I'm sorry..."

"It's OK." Xiao Qi also got up and touched his face. "You're in a bad mood. Have you met anything?"

Li Shuo shook his head. "I'm sorry."

“…… Lovelorn? " Xiao Qi raised his eyebrows.

Li Shuo was stunned and didn't speak.

"Ah." Xiao Qi hugged his head and kissed his forehead. "I'm very happy that you can come to me today, but we have to do it. You're in a bad mood. I can chat with you."

Li Shuo looked at the bright boy with shame and said in a soft, mechanical voice, "I'm sorry..."

"It's all right, lovelorn, human nature." Xiao Qi got up from the carpet and dragged Li Shuo up. "Come on, let's continue to watch the movie. Ouch, I'm hungry again. I'll take out. I'd like to eat a bunch of strings and a dozen of beers. We'll live tonight."

Li Shuo smiled, relieved a lot: "OK."

Li Shuo ordered takeout, and the two chatted while eating. Apart from doing love, they also shared some common languages, such as football, music, and a few bottles of wine. Xiao Qi told Li Shuo about his work troubles, and Li Shuo used his rich experience to enlighten him, which was very speculative.

Unconsciously, they talked until midnight. They climbed into bed drunk and fell asleep.

The next day, Li Shuo woke up with a hangover. His brain was still in a daze. He felt the warm skin on his hand. He used to mutter: "Jinxin..."

Li Shuo opened his eyes as soon as he took off these two words. He sat up and stared at the man beside the pillow with an electric shock.

A white, handsome face sleeping soundly.

It's not Zhao Jinxin.

At that moment, lishuo's heart felt weightlessness like jumping off a cliff. It was creepy to feel the sudden turning. He couldn't tell whether he was feeling lucky or lost.

He sighed deeply, rubbed his disheveled hair, hesitated to get up or go to sleep.

All of a sudden, he heard the sound of the door lock turning in the living room. He was alert and straight.

The next second, the door was opened, and he turned to get out of bed and rushed to the living room.

It won't be

He ran to the living room and collided with Zhao Jinxin who came in with something.

Both men were stunned.

Lishuo returned to God and looked at him with disbelief: "who allowed you to come in?"

Zhao Jinxin didn't answer. He looked around the living room. From the tea table of a pile of leftovers and wine bottles, he saw some clothes lying on the carpet at will, then the canvas shoes at the door, and finally the kiss marks on lishouchi's naked upper body and neck.

Zhao Jinxin's eyes changed and became cold and gloomy. He threw away his things and strode towards the bedroom.

Li Shuo jumped up, pushed him away, and shouted, "get out!"

Zhao Jinxin looked at him with a fierce look: "who? Who is in the room? "

"It's none of your business?"

"Wen Xiaohui?"

"Less nonsense."

Zhao Jinxin still rushes to the bedroom. Li Shuo grabs his collar and says in a cold voice, "Zhao Jinxin, I say again, get out of my house, in front of my eyes, in my life, and disappear completely."

Zhao Jinxin stares at Li Shuo. His eyes are congested. He says, "who did you find?"

"Roll -" Li Shuo desperately pushed back his chest.

Zhao Jinxin retreated for two steps, and the steps were just as nailed. He did not move any more. He grabbed Li Shuo's hand, stared at his eyes directly, and then opened his fingers.

Li Shuo was pale and angry.

Zhao Jinxin finally broke off his two hands, threw them aside, and rushed into the bedroom without hesitation.

Li Shuo angrily scolded and chased after him.